I'm blogging now using my hotel's com.
shhhhhh.
Anyway i've got nothing to be scare of cause all jobs done!
Been through my first week of work.
Wasn't bad, though it gets a tad boring at times.
Morning shift is a killer cause i've got to wake up at 5 every morning but like yh says,
the best part able to knock off at 3 and enjoy the rest of my afternoon.
But sighs.
I'm on noon shift for the whole freaking week.
Noon shift's not bad cause there's lotsa to be done and less supervision. heh
Done my first check in of guest and was a bundle of nerves. ahhaha
Its sucks most when my A.M stands behind me. Although she means nothing but its pressurizing =))
Kind of miss working will yh! Cause no one to gossip to at work. sighs

I miss my PR!!!
She message me today and ask for meet up! yesssssssss my dear!
But well i'm on noon shift sooooo let's try to fix a gd timing
Gossips. Laughters.Problems sharing. LIfe updating.Photos taking
Can't wait ! Can't wait!

Counting down to knock off....... half and hour more to go and i can see my guy!
He's fetching me today and he said he bought something for me......
Wahaha i love surprises once in a while and again...
I can't wait to see him AND the present of cause. whahahahah

We are certainly not as close.
I wonder what do us part?
The interviews? That irritating guy? Or the different views of life.
Sad to say. I do miss you so.

I was taught
Even the strongest soul has their weak moments.
They do teared at times.

I'm really feeling tired but i can't figure out what causes it.
All i wan to do now is fly out of this country and have a nice holiday.
Redang............... when will i be on you?


My colleagues date me to MOS tonight.
Feel sooo lazy guess i would not be going after all......
Damn on afternoon shift for the whole damn next week. And eeki's on morning shift.
*Sighs* How to eat BK like that.wahahhaha
Eeki!!! Don't miss me too much ya!!!







You are my sweetest most unreliable alarm clock!

Yesterday was majong day!!
Wahaha.
All right, guess i got to say a loud THANK YOU to
Chua Hong Yi.
Eeki Chua Yee Hui
Peter Brandon Wee Lu Xian
cause i owe my basic majong skills to them. =))
Although they say i'm a noob i still think i'm okay.ahahahaha

Finally its my off day! The only day i can do away with that disgusting heels!
sighs.Its working day for me tml again. how sad can it be.....................





You are the only reason to my happiness.

Today's my second day starting work in Meritus Negara hotel as Guest Relations Officer.
Was not bad just a little boring though cause we are still not able to handle most of the operations.
So I guess for this few days its just like standing ard and doing those simple stuff.
Anyway after my first day of work, ning met me and we had sushi!
Rocks. =))
Had some talks and cross the line and enter into some sensitive topics that I always wanted to ask but I dare not.
Went to find some friends to chill and guess what?
The chilling session turns out to be a heart to heart talk =))
Everyone was speaking in a way that is sooooo wayyy mature and some of it said really do touch a few awakening soft spots in my heart.
Heh. Its a really fulfilling session to the lost little soul deep down in everyone. ahahahah

Its true that many things in life depended or maybe are cause by fate.
But what if the fate is just near you and what you gonna do is just to take that small little step and its within your clutch.
But many ppl just refuse to take the small little step forward.
Pride, ego, fear, rejections always get in the way.
What's a little rejection and humilation when you get to learn far more then what you could have learned if you just stand on that "safe" spot waiting for fate or destiny to come knocking on your door.
Many a time we would have make the satetment
" shit, if i have done that"
"if i have that little more courage"
"if i " "if i" "if i"
What's the use of having regrets in life. Its the worst feeling, well at least to me.
I guess you'll find true happiness lies in answering your soul's needs.


Btw, someone told me this recently.
Being in a relationship is just like you are in a game.
How you handle a relationship will be like how you play a game.
Throwing in too much and showing too much in the begining will make the later part boring.
Throwing in too much and showing too much in the begining will tend to make you lose your game faster.
Cause you are rushing in too fast and you did not give yourself enough time to figure that the best way and strategy that suits you most and you will be most comfortable with in clearing the stages in the game.

Well i don't know how does it sounds to all but its do make a little sense in someway or so.......




Ning!
I really enjoyed that sushi dinner =))
Although we have know each other for quite a long time, i finds that there is always something for me to learn from ya. Although i don't what it is =))
whahahha huggss to my fav ger!



Life have always been different since 050206

Anyway! My guy decided to hire me for his airline.
"Mervyn's airline"
He decided to hire yee hui too.
BUT he ask me to go for interview! #$^%$&^%*&@!#@$#%
Eat shit dear! =P

Went to the 3rd interview but i did not make it.
Sighs. But its okay cause did not really have high expectations just a little unwilling to accept the fact. =))
Not that i'm trying to be sour grapes but those who got in really really CMI! so way cannot make it.
I have strong supportors k! yee hui's my no 1. heh
Well there are a few expections though. Congrats to those who got in and can make it! whahha
Congrats to jusmin too cause she went into the 4th round. sorry if i look a little unable to share your happiness just now cause well, i'm unwillingly to accept it! whaha anyway its over. cheers*

Anyway got to rush cause meeting yee hui for a interview later. If i get that job then i will tell all =))
KIddos. Btw S*A interviewees are freaking BLIND CATS!

Was chatting with phil online and while she told me abt some of her probs with her ger.
And it make me realise something.
The faster you fall, blindly you fall, you will realise you will fall so deep that you don't even know where it will lead.
The more you tried to control, the more you lose control.
The harder you force yourself to recover, the more time you will need to heal.
Blinded by the addiction called L-O-V-E.
Its a living hell if you lose this addiction to some.
But how come some can keep that addiction off as easy as ABC while some suffer freaking awlful withdrawal syptoms.
Guess this is one mysterious part of life that no one else on this round ball can explain.




Just don't let yourself sink any further.
It pains me alot.
Promise me will you? I'm not telling you how to run your life cause its yours after all.
I just want you to be happy again. Promise me my ger!

I'm so tired and lazy to go out later.
But I guess jus and yeehui will kill me if I told they so. BUT. Sighs!

Anyway went for the 2nd interview today and luck brought me far. Cause I managed to get in =))
Next round will be on 16th and I hope my luck will once again bring me through.
My gers went in too! So damn happy. We will we will make it through ya! *huggss*


"Putting an end to any and all false starts helps demonstrate how much you've grown. Your sense of independence and personal strength really come into play when you learn how to identify these dead ends. "
My god.
Easily said then done. How the hell will I know.
Maybe i'm just not that mature enough to realize it after all. Sighs.
Whatever.


I know what you are going through is painful.
But remember you are not alone cause I'm really here for ya. I promise.
I can feel your hurt and restlessness.It brings my mood down too cause it pains me to see what you are going through.
I'll pray and pray that no fc*ukers will cross your path again and what you will get in the future will be pure happiness.
I love you my dear ger! Muacks


You are my painkiller.
I appreciate what you have said and I know you mean it.
Thanks baby.. we have a long way to go ya =)

Restless! Argh. This feeling have been stalking me for days.
I need something more in my life.
A stable FULL time job.
Purpose in my life.
Fc*k the feelings of uncertainty and unhappiness.
I don't know why but I feel like brawling my eyes out.
Guess this is one of the few fc*ked up days. Sighsssssss


I don't know why. But this few days I don't really feel at peace and I guess I'm scare of her after all.
Her existence.The past together.Those little things she have done.
I can't help feeling it that way.
Its just that feeling nagging at me.


I don't know why this "I don't know why" pharse keep appearing in my entry.
I just feel like being alone for that little while..........

Yawns i just woke up not long ago.
Got to rush abit cause meeting ning at our fav hangout place.

Met up with bryan, leong, jus and ning yesterday.
It feels like old days.Just hanging out.slacking and only laughter surrounds us.
I kind of miss this kind of simplicity.
Anyway yesterday hell lot of jokes happen and the best joke that happen is the incident whereby ning and the auntie kanna.
I was having a plate of hokkien mee and the moment i place my choppedsticks down, the auntie assume that i'm done. So it happen like 4 5 times and we were kind of pissed. When i went to get my drinks, ning started to pick up my chopsticks and pretended to eat the mee. The auntie came to our table again and wanted to clear the plate so ning told her we still want it.
The next shocking thingy is that the auntie told ning: " if u still want it den eat for me to see!"
Of cause ning was shocked and pissed so she just say:" Auntie later i go complain u arh"
Then the auntie walked to one corner and stared at ning and said:" Siao char bo."
Ning was so mad with anger cause the auntie keep walking up and down and stared at ning. So ning make a damn freaking funny comment.
She say:" Call ur children down and i call my parents den we one to one"

WHAHAHAHAHAHAH damn funny right!!!!!
Just wanna say thanks to my fav ger. Cause you once again spice up my day with laughter!














































































































Anyway after meeting bryan and gang me and ning rushed down to Amk to meet our dearest old time fav friends!
Heh. Zg and gang.
Caifu's going in on friday for NS. Its time for ya to repaid the country my dear bro! whahaha
Guess we will miss his LAME yet strong jokes!

Oh ya. We are all having our 2nd interview this sat. So gd luck gers!
Luck. hmm we need lotsa of it!

Whatever I blog today shall be full of crap or hard to understand.
Cause I lost my sense of saneness today as it claims its off day today.


I realized something recently.
I find my breast shrinking.
hmmmmmmm but I dun find my waistline shrinking! Damn
Okay crap.
Weather this few days are like literally killing me and melting me.
Reducing me to a puddle of fats and oil.
I'm so bored till my tears dropped.
Till my hair stopped growing.
Till my restless soul ceased fidgeting.

Anyway my guy just told me he's considering opening a new friendster acc. And he thought of what to put in his Who I want to me column.
Who I want to meet: Fairlady and I want to get inside her by year 2007.
And he is so proud by this. Thinking its so funny! heh.

all right! CRAP.CRAPPY.CRAP