I'm not feeling too good this morning.
Not good as in i'm kind of disturbed by a dream that constantly haunted me.
I dreamt of this again and again.
And each of the time, i can't figure it out.
I tried searching for dream interpretation online and yet i'm dissatisfied with what i found.
Anyone can help??

I've been having this dream for quite a number of times.
In my dreams, i'm with a grp of ppl and it seems that we have a mission to complete.
I dreamt the we are always running and escaping away from police and gangsters. I felt scared and confused but the the same time, whenever we managed to escape, i will feel thrilled and have a sense of achievement.
In the dreams, i own a gun and i killed to survive. I can feel the impact of the gun whenever i fired.
This dream leave me restless, tired and confused when i wake up

And this is what i found:

Killing in dreams symbolizes the desire to "make someone go away," and should not be interpreted literally as a sign of murderous intent. Whom did you kill? Can you identify the recipient of your anger in waking life? In dreams of murdering loved ones or family members, the dreamer may be worried about a current course of action, which he or she believes is "hurting" the murdered person, eg, a child or spouse. Repeated dreams of killing reflect feelings of anger and frustration. It's time to speak to someone, and get it off your chest! Dreams of killing small animals may be a reference to abortion. If you kill in self-defense, the dream is considered a positive sign of self-esteem and confidence, you are able to respond effectively to threats of attack.

Police in dreams reference law and order, and also hold associations to feelings of guilt. Are you nervous that you will be caught for an action or impropriety that you have committed? Are you feeling guilty in advance, for an action you are contemplating? Calling police on a telephone is a common "Cry for help!" dream. Do you wish someone "with authority" would help you correct an injustice, or provide a solution to a problem?

Gun in dreams is a symbol of aggression, anger, power and protection. If the gun fires properly, the dream suggests feelings of power and confidence. If the dreamer is attacking, he or she should be alerted to hostile or angry feelings towards the persons attacked. Being shot at indicates an emotional attack in waking life. If the gun will not fire, or if the bullets are ineffective, feelings of powerlessness are represented. Dreams of being surrounded by people who carry guns can reflect feelings that one is involved with a "dangerous crowd." Dreams of guns should not be interpreted as precognitive.

Escape in dreams means successful avoidance of pursuer indicates confidence in one's ability to avoid attackers or enemies. The significant question of the dream, however, is from whom or what are you escaping? Repeated dreams of escape, involving exits through numerous doors and "trap doors" in a house, may reflect the dreamer's avoidance of disturbing issues or awarenesses in his or her life.
Dreams of escape reflect feelings of confidence that you can successfully outmaneuver, outwit, and outrun your pursuers or captors. The question to ask, however, is from whom, or from what challenge, are you escaping? Are you trapped in a job you hate, or unhappy romantic relationship? Work to identify the avoided feelings that are represented by your pursuers, so that you can leave "dreams of escape" behind!

This is not helping me at all..... i need clearer interpretations!



Sat was hell.
5 bottles opened.
Everyone was high like some tards.
Could not stop laughing at all those silly actions.words said.dance moves.
Iris sweets happened to be there and we danced the whole night.
She just spice up my night! Love you ger!!!

My dear ade.
Guess something is not working out for you.
But do take note, i'm just a phone call away.
And
no matter what time of the day, i will fly down to you if you need me =))
Huggss











You just filled the missing piece in my life.
I want no one else except you.

Eeki's off to seoul and she msged me to tell me how shag she is.
Heh
Sent her off yesterday and before off to her hse to chill with her awhile.
When i reached her hse, i saw my sweet RU HUA.
whahahhas
Then to Swensen again. Shall upload the pics soon..

I want to catch lotsa movie!
Hard candy.Love Wrecked. The Devils wear Prada (must see with my gers!). Monster House (my cha-dish bf wanna watch.like a kid. opps).Lucky Number Slevin (R21 but heck. i sneaked in once and why nt!).Pretty Persuasion.


Anyways i learnt a new pharse today.
Does anyone knows what do you actually mean by Girl friday?
Anyone? Anyone?







Girl friday : An efficient and faithful woman aide or employee
Though it sounds like some description for girls with indecent occupation.



The beat that my heart skipped.

God of luck has not been very kind to me.
Deals that were pending ended up in disappointments.
Candidates that were superb got turned down.
Sighs.
I really don't want to bring home basic month after month.
I want money for my high-end lifestyle.
Gucci.Loewe.High- to- the sky phone bills.Fetish for earrings.Necklaces. Watches.Endless non stop shopping.Heels.Clothes.Bags(big ones!).Mascaras.Waterproof eyeliner.Pig outs.Handphone.Birthday presents.Biotherm endless series of products.Holidays.Spa.Massage.BKK.HK.Japan.My sisters.My mum.My guy.My friends.Eyebrow trimming.Weight Losing.Yoga lessons.Dance lessons.Speech communication lessons.DRIVING LESSONS!.
Money money where are you?
How come you can't be with me forever?
Must you always part with me?


After work i'm sending my sweets for her first flight!
Things will be fine ya.
Cause all your loved ones will be praying for you!






You're the breath that I take
You're the smile on my face
Every time I breathe in, brings me warmth from within
When you touch me, I start believing
Loving is like oxygen

Yesterday was bad.
I woke up from a bad dream and woke up with 2 swollen eyes.
Looking like a goldfish and i'm off to work.
To make myself feel a tad better, i smacked on a too - big -for- my -face's sunglass.
Feeling utterly miserable i stepped into office and everyone was asking me what's wrong?
Did i cried? Cried over wad?
No ppl, i did not......... i guess i'm suffering from what most girls hate the most.
Water retention!!!
Sucks

But my day got better cause i met up with my sweets for dinner!
Eeki chua took the initative to invite me out for dinner
whao~~
whahahs
We settled at swensens and had our all time fav!
FRIES!
I realise the smartest person on earth was the one who found potatoes.
Even smartest is the person who turned a fat potato into slim long fries.
Kuddos!!!!

Went over to chill at Grapevine with my boy, eeki hao fong and qx.
It was a tiring thing cause we just could not stop laughing.
Qx aka Twister of s'pore was driving us crazy with his duper lame jokes.
Hell man. he can really rap.The next best thing is he rapped in chinese.
Shall record it and post in online sometime....
Watermelon smoothies, strawberry smoothies, honey lemon, lame jokes, constant doubling over in laughter filled the rest of the night.

My sweets flying tml!
Do take care ger..






How could i breathe without you if you ever goes?

Caught the Break Up yesterday.
It was really good.
The things that were shown were all so realistic
Things happened and no one took the right approach to solve it.
Instead, as my guy put it in layman terms, they like to "cha cha" with each other.
Be it anything small, a little appreciation will do wonders.
Things always turn to the worse when ppl start to take everything for granted.
Its the same theory again and again but when will humans ever start to learn?
I admit i'm guilty of doing some that was shown on screen too and when i watched it from a 3rd party stand, all became crystal clear.
It was really silly to do that.
Anways
I give 4 popcorns for it cause it really touches my heart!



All rights.
I realise i got to tame my savings a little more.
Met up with hada and we went through my Financial status and i realise it spells
D-A-N-G-E-R.
I have no investments. no protections. no savings. no nothing.
Really rang the alert bell in me.
Still thinking of what plan to take it up cause it's quite a huge commitment to spare a few hundreds a mth for all this.
Sighs
Suddenly i destest growing up.......





Anyways.
I hope my dear adelene's feeling better now.
Haiyo my sweets. Take care of yourself ah
You still need to fly k
Huggss





It just shocked me to see them rolling.
Aahahas
You are too sweet to be true at times.
I'm always into my sweet blushing tomatos

Oh hell.
Its Sunday.
Spell the last day of weekend and the starting of weekday.
I totally dread it.
Anyways! I'm watching THE BREAK UP
Kelvin was singing its praises all the way.
Msged me early in the morning just to tell me how nice it was.
I can't wait to see my fav actress.
Brad Pitt is SHHOOOO STUPID.

Friday night was crazy.
DBL O and O bar.
Music rocks
Drinks rocks
Company rocks
Crowd sucks (though we did not really pay attention cause we were too high!)
Was actually there hesitating whether to go down or not but well,
Eeki and desmond's combined nagging skill got me running there at top speed!
The 2 of them can NAG DAMN WELL
whahas
By the time when I was there, eeki's was almost half drunk.
Looking like a lobster and waiting for me by the street.
My boy drove me there and while I was getting off the car, dearest eeki was SHOUTING across the street
"See I'm so good, wait for you here! I'm your BESTEST friend!!"
I think the whole of MS street knows that we are bestest friends.................
whahahhas
I was totally left mouth open and jaw hanging!!!!!
She can't stop talking loudly.. Like some ah lian!
Drinks was cheap like dirt and we were drinking and drinking till I went high...
Otehs! O bar shall go into our list once again......



Otehs
Heres to you my bestest friend!
Though the time we know each other wasn't really long, I feel as though I know you for a lifetime.
I know it sounds corny but well, no choice! Just Bear with it.
How long have we know each other? A year and more??
Thank you for being there for me.
Thank you for standing by me when I feel as if the world whole has abandoned me.
Thank you for believing in me when almost everyone does not.
Thank you for understanding me when almost everyone misunderstood me.
Thank you for giving me your shoulder for me to cry one.
Thank you for helping me to pass through the down period. The phone calls.The sms-es.The longest dinner.Alleys talks.long walk to timber.Negara times.many many more.
Thank you for lighting my life up.The joy and laughter!
I'm looking forward to our first quarrel cause I know if will further strengthen our bond!! whahahhas
Thank you my sweets, i heart you!!







Thank you for everything.
I know my temper at times sucks.
You know how i feel and i know i don't have to spell it out.
Every moments' magical when I'm with you.
The feeling that was once so intense doubled, tripled.
I feel that this is a no turning back.
Its a fall so hard and so deep. So intense.
An yet never ending....
I'm glad. Really glad.
I'm back in your arms once again

Eeeks. Argh. Pui

I'm so distracted from work.
Since 9 in the morning, i've been doing almost nothing.
Surfing the net aimlessly.
Physically i'm going through my work but well mentally, i'm utterly lost in my own world.
I kept thinking and thinking but if you ask me what's on my mind, i'll be stumped.
Cause i will not know how to ans!!!
Sighs.
What's wrong with me today?

Tml's gonna be busy.
Though its my precious off day, i still got 2 candidates to meet up with.
Sighs.
Meeting sweet hada too!Been a long time since i met up with her.

Sugar jess!
I will call you by this week to confirm our long awaited date next week ya *huggss*

I honestly need my therapy.
Shopping!!!!
I need skinnies.mascara.new make up pouch.lipgloss.new clothes.red pumps.new watch.new phone.new undies.new bra.new earrings.new necklaces..........






Save the last dance for me

Saw a meaningful quote from leon.
In the moment that you carry this conviction..in that moment your dream will become a reality.
Wah so inspiring..All right i shall and i will carry my own conviction to realise my dream.
But there's a little problem here.
I don't know what my own conviction is..
Sighs. Craps


Was clearing my mail and i saw this simple mail and yet it simply tugged at my heart.

The difference between friends and best friends.
Friend: Calls your parents by mr. and mrs.
Best friend: Calls your parents dad & mom or tito & tita.

Friend: Has never seen you cry
Best friend: Has always has the best shoulder to cry on

Friend: Never asks for anything to eat or drink
Best friend: Opens the fridge & makes himself at home

Friend: Asks you to write down your number.
Best friend: They ask you for their number (cuz they can't remember it)

Friend: Borrows your stuff for a few days then gives it back.
Best friend: Has a closet full of your stuff

Friend: Only knows a few things about you
Best friend: Could write a biography on your life story

Friend: Will leave you behind if that is what the crowd is doing
Best friend: Will always go with you

Friend: Will ask where you've been
Best Friend: Will say I MISS YOU & goes on being your friend

Well, i'm not being emo.
But well, it reminds me of the times.
Coming to my house, taking bread from here.
Waking me up in the morning.
Milo.Breadtalk.Nonsense.Crystal jade.
Laughters.Swensens.Cartel.Tears.Huggss.Turneddownappointments.
Till now, i still don;t know why we became like this...



Anyways.
I'm shifting. Get my new addy from me ya!

Driving last night was hell nerve wrecking.
My guy took me for practice and i swear he is the fiercest instructor ever.
My turning sucks.
My braking sucks.
My clutching sucks.
ahahha and i make him feel so frustrated that he kept saying
"Girl ah, do you really understand what i mean not???"
"Girl ah, don't listen listen and forget k!"
"Girl ah,What you doing! Brake Brake!"
Went up the curb twice.
Engine died thousand times.
(Though it never died when i go for proper training.must be the fierce instructor beside me yesterday)
Overturn hundred times.
Underturn ten over times.
Tsk tsk. This is not good.
Shall buck up for my 3rd lesson. Well, do take note its only my 3rd!

Eeki!
Saw your flight schedule.
Sounds not bad to me but well, i guess it sucks cause you will be flying alone right?
No worries ya, i'm sure you can mingle well with the unknowns. whahhas
We need to spend time before you start flying and forget all abt me! =(
Chill.Gossip.Shop.K.Club.Hearttoheart.EAT!.Yoga (though its hard).LOSE WEIGHT.Alley talks.
heh!

Sugar sugar.
Meet up next week ya.
Your bdae present still with me =))









I swear this is Deja Vu.
Cause i want no substitute

I'm dying to go home now..
But well i'm still stuck in the ice box, performing some OTs.
Unpaid. Do take note.
Anyways, i finally got my namecard! This is so cool can.













Otehs got a sad news.
One of my nicest colleague is leaving to pursue her dreams.
Teacher wannabe!
All the best to you Michelle!
Though i did not know you for long, this period of working together is really good. Let's keep in touch ya!









Save the last dance for me

I'm going throught the webbie that iris gave me.
Hmm was thinking should i go for reggae classes?
Its cheap though $120 for 8 weeks. Once per week.
Can slim down and dance also.
whahas thinking.thinking.

Back at work today after the break and i feel as if its a mon today.
Sighs. no deal closed yet and my boss had a wage with my team leader.
I'm feeling the pressure.......
Was feeling quite pissed on Tues cause of some problematic candidates.
But well the night got better.
Headed off to zouk
Saw my lao peng yous. whahas Wilin, benson and gang.
It's just like old times! Zouk.Clubbing. Its where we used to be at every friday last time. heh
Had so much to catch up and wilin's really lame to the max!
Agreed to club together soon.
I'm looking forward to it!!
Met up with iris too!
And i once again became a photo whore.
Though it was brief and summarise but i got to rough hold of it.
I will support you no matter what ya!

Rights shall bury myself in emails, resumes and more cold callings
Ciao~








Let's play a game and its entitled to no one
other then you and me

Morning to all early birds!
I'm in my office now. So looking forward to National day!
Cause that's when i will have off. Rorrs

Suddenly, I'm missing my secondary sch days.
No worries. No Stress. No concern for money. No deadlines to meet. No Targets to meet.
Everyday is just sch, classes, remedies, teasing, playing, puppy loves, Silly friendship quarrels (patch up within a month) and lots of laughter plus dummy stuff.
Miss walking to the bus stop every morning to meet xx.Miss the ride to sch.Miss the running to the parade square because we are late. Miss "silent reading".Miss sitting beside my partner misses pearly, gossiping. Miss walking back to class and staring at all perfects. Miss sitting in class dozing off in between lessons. Miss rushing for PE classes. Miss netball games. Miss noisy recesses. Miss POA, history, English. Miss being scare by Vivian tan for falling in class during math’s lesson. Miss chemistry lab. Miss mixing and getting scolded by Miss Kor.Miss just hanging ard doing nothing after sch.
Sighs, those were the days..

On a happier note.
1 whole lorry of lucks for eeki.
You can make it for your test later ya.
Remember 1st flight and our BK deal!

And yes, i went for my 3rd drving lesson yesterday.
Was turning and turning like some tards.
Gear 2 moves like some trolley without control. I trying to get a grip on it.
Tsk Tsk
My instructor Mr chong went
" xiao jie, you are moving like a drunken snake. are you performing some drunken fist"
"aiyo, ni kan ni kan. bu ya pa.you uncle chong."
Honestly i felt like some noob. whahhas.

Miss adelene!
No mj for the whole of this week.
You are so going to get some ass kicking study session!

I miss my gers..
Hurry up with your tests
and
we can party like hell





things fall into pieces when we are together.

Back in my freezing office again from lunch.
I think i'm growing fatter and fatter.
I can foresee myself in 5 months time.
Big like big mama's butt!
Big like nacho's tummy!
Flab - like - chicken - wing arms!
AHHHH! NIGHTMARE!!!

Caught lady in the water with my 2 sweeties!
It was totally disappointing!
3 of us clowning ard more in the movie then watching and understanding it I think.
Chattering non stop.
Laughing at the slightest nonsense.
Ade's constant squealing and small shouts when the movie was not even scary.
Eeki's constant tossing and nibbling at the popcorn.
I think this the first time I’m so inconsiderate in the movies!
whahhas but it was really funny lah.
Imagine spotting some miracle thing from boxes of cereals?
Standing there mumbling away and deciphering some lame stuff abt what moviestar will do when u can run like crazy to save your life???
Lady in the water is sooooooooooooo disappointing.












Don't ever let go of my hand