Its friday again.
This means its weekend again.
After which, on monday I will blog its weekday again.
Which means it's the start of a new week.
Then I will drag myself out of bed everyday and work non stop like some tard.Waiting for the golden friday to come.
I'll then blog its friday again! And when its ends i'll bog its monday again.
So my life only consists of lookingforward friday and dreading monday.
lookingforwardfriday.dreadingmonday.lookingforwardfriday.dreadingmonday
How exciting.........


Anyways.
I went for Isetan private sale yesterday with chen and fong then after which I abandon them for mysweets!
ahhahahas
It felt as if I'm in Africa where everyone there crawl-snatch-pull-push-grab at everything edible. in this case, anything wearable.
Well, I guess all women can't resist the temptations of these phrases.
DISCOUNT.SALES.EVERYTHING MUST GO AT CHEAP PRICES. BUY 2 GET 1 FREE.50%.UP TO 70%.2 FOR THE PRICES OF 1.
And many more that I'm lazy to t y p e it out.
Sales crazy thus resulted in everyone going crazy.
Bras.salmbastrings.Gstrings.lacepanties.seethroughpanties.tops.tshirts.
girlytops.dresses.tubes.spag.pants.jackets.cardigans.cosmetics.mac.biotherm.
stilla.lancome.Max&co.angesb.mango.younameittheyhaveit.
Not wanting to get broke I bought a bra.1ladiesboxer.1string.3tops.
All at a price of $97.
Not forgetting a cardigan from angesb for my guy! (Not only on my credit though.heh)
Okays, it's cheap to meeee.
I love the idea of having money monies to shop till I drop. But I simply just hate the process of it.
Cause it killsmybraincells.Drainmeofmyengery.makemylegsache.eyestired.
But well, luckily I have eeki to acc me.




I'm still waiting.
Waiting till my neck grow long.
Waiting for JOVI to fetch me on her long awaited vespa.
I wonder how many million years I still got to wait.
tsk.
notnicenotnice.



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Dear all, my cousin just opened a pub near outram MRT. looking for ladies servers. $12/hr. taxi can be claim. Interested pls tell me cause i feel like going there too!

youaremyhoneysugar.

I'm all in the mix and I'm all into you
You remain the same angel that I fell for
You got me tripping, stumbling, flipping, fumbling
Clumsy cause I'm falling in love

There's so much i wanted to update.
But well
My body refuse to co-operate with my mind.














lololovelololovelololovelololovelololove

Hectic workloads this few days.
TGIF
I can finally stopped staring at the computer scanning tones of resumes.
Anyways I'm just back from lunch-ing. An guess what
I could hardly keep my eyes open. I feel as if I'm being drugged and lure to sleep.
I just hate this feeling. It is just pure mental torture.
Shall update my past few days' activities.

Weds was reunion dinner-ing with my dearest Meow and Boon.
My sweetest uncle AND my Funniest "ah-pa"
Lots to catch up and well it simply bring me back to the times when I was working in Sketches again.
Supper after work.
NUS "food street".Macpherson market. Wanton Mee.Breko.Western food.Porridge.Dim Sum. Lime Juice. Milo Peng.Kopi Peng.
As long as I'm with them. I'll never be hungry! Well, we got a new fav now. And its Olive fried rice.
Its f*uk nice man.
As usual the 2 workaholics were busy chatting away. And constantly updating me with the newest gossips and happenings in Sketches. Heh.
Talking abt HK too!
Uncle meow! Do take me there k. you promised!
I really missed the times with them. Always doting on me though they are sooo naggy at times.
All right guys shall be my treat next week or wad ya!

Yesterday was sweetest home finally having a home cooked meal.
A simple family dinner with mum kept stuffing food into my guy. ahhas
Off we go to West cost with my sis and little bro.
Now I know taking care of kids can be so tiring.
And well, I didn't know that my guy can connect so well to kids.
The picture of him holding on to my little bro is just so sweet. heh
Should have taken a pic of them together...
My guy do has his tender side after all! *huggss*

I can't wait for tonight.
Shall hang out with my sweets!

Dearest Jasmine,
I'm sorry I couldn't make it on Weds ya. Shall make it up to you!

Dearest Sugar and Shan,
I'm looking forward to next week! *huggss*

I have run out of excuses.
Excuses to not showing how much I love you

Somedays ago..

She told her
The more i want to communicate the further apart we are.
She told her
Is it because its express in the wrong way.

She told her
What i'm trying to let you know is that no matter what, there's someone there for you.
She told her
Nothing at all. Only staring into the dark blue sky with her.

She told her
I wanna cry i wanna cry till you understand. till the whole world understand.
I wanna try i wanna try knowing that there might be no future.
She told her
Once again
Nothing at all. Both eyes on the stary sky.

She told her
i tried to erase the way your kisses taste
She told her
But some things a girl can never forget.

Many days after.

She told her
I was swept away, so proud to be your girl.However when you write a story much too fast, sometimes a happy ending doesn't last
She told her
I don't wanna let go. I realise how impt you are to me.

She told her
Now I know that when love it's right it's so amazing. When it's wrong you got to let it go.Now I know.
She told her
Nothing.Eyes on her resigned tired looking eyes.

She told her
Remember when, we said our love would last forever.But then again, how are we to know.Sunny day will suddenly turn cold.
She told her
Nothing.Holding her hands tightly afraid to let go.

She told her
I don't regret a single day.Joy and pain along the way.A broken heart's the price we paid.But sadly, this got to be the way.The heart ain't always right.
She told her
Nothing.nothing at all..Tears flowing down and yet not expressing.

They both know the story's ending. They play the part but they're just pretending.
So she told them both
Your song has played its last note and you both know for sure that it's time to close that door .





She asked her one last time.
Is it possible for a heart that had been hurt before to continue loving me......

He don't read hers anymore.
Neither do him.

Inner thoughts penned down and waiting.
But he don't know what she's thinking.
Cause he don't bother anymore.
Neither do him.





I'm feeling a little more than tired.a little less than exhausted.

Lots of blog hopping and i came across a blog
One that would have send me running with huge mixed feelings in the past.
But right now, after i have browse through it.
I'm having mixed feelings. again.

"I shouldn't be feeling this way. i shouldn't. i'm trying not to. really trying. but its hard. because everytime i close my eyes. i just remember.

I'm trying not to stare, it's too late
The blankets over there, if you like
I'm broken and i'm colder than hell
I should've said i'd not come back here

i guess. for one second. i just thought. i just wished. perhaps i actually believed. but that was a mistake. the biggest mistake i made.

To think i might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbyes
I nearly do

because every second. has been so. different. so much better than anything i've ever known. and i guess i was just lying to myself all this while.

its like a double blow i suppose. i pretend i'm not affected. but i am. inside, i really am. i guess it was something i already knew. but i avoided it. because i knew i couldn't face up to it. and now i have to. but its been wonderful. really wonderful. i won't forget. i won't.

It's a feeling I've had many times before
I can't hold the fort so don't give me more
I struggle and sweat when I'm wide awake
When I know I'm fine, I'm not used to fine

eating at modestos, late night dinner at swensens, dinner at fancy places, going to places, the movies, my cravings for ice cream, blasting r&b in your car, shopping, gucci, agnes b, water and twisties after mos, those times you sent me home when you really didn't have to, the way you made fun of me, those conversations on the phone, your laugh, the way you made me laugh, your earrings, your hat, the photos taken with my action sampler. i'll look at those photos, i'll remember, i might smile, but it'll all just be painful memories in time to come.

it hasn't been very long, but the time doesn't count. its everything else we've done along the way. and its meant alot. i guess i already knew. you already knew. we already said so. but i just didn't know it would be so abrupt like this.

thank you for being there this past week, as i'm going through this. thank you for listening, for worrying, even though you really didn't need to. thank you for saying you'll pick me and send me home. thank you for caring, thank you for being there.

friends.

you'll always be my boo.

on the other side of my life, i'm going through the biggest thing in my life ever."

" to xxxxx for coming just to pick me and send me home. for not letting me go back alone. even though you really didn't have to. thank you.
for that one last time, one last ride in your car, that one last hug, that one last goodbye, thank you."





tell me how should i feel if you were me
though its the past, i don't feel good.
Many a times, i'm thinking
Thinking deeply .. wondering ......



My guy's sick physically.
Aching here and there
Flu and fever.
My poor egghead. Hope he get well soon!

okays.
Not in a mood to blog.
I need a space to digest

Its Monday again but I'm not really feeling blue.
Suddenly I feel like talking abt something called LOVE.
I don't care if it sounds Cliche
Love for not only your the other half. But also to your friends, family and even your enemies.

Many years ago.
When I was still crawling ard like a baby, I felt loved when my parents carry me ard in their arms and dropping kisses on me.
When I scrape my knees and red can be seen, I felt loved when my parents hugged me and fussed ard me.
As I grow older...
I felt loved when I have my friends ard me and I thought it's all that matters.
I felt loved when my parents handed me monies to let me have what I desired and not need.
I felt loved when I have my first crush, my first boyfriend.
In short, I felt loved when I have the attention I once desired again.

I felt unloved when my once-it-matters-so-much objects/person in my life starts to leave me.
Abandon me.
I felt unloved when I realize I cannot on hold to someone/something anymore like I used to.
I felt unloved when I realize my someone/something left me due to change of environment or change of character. Or just because all changes.
I felt unloved when I quarrel with my family and all turned upside down.
And now,
I realize love never dies a natural death.
It dies because we don't know how to replenish its source.
It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals.
It dies of illness and wounds
It dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.Love, like truth and beauty, is concrete. It is active and effective
To me, a matter of making reciprocal and mutually beneficial relation with one's friends and enemies.

Looking at this entry, I realize how this word called Love changes its meaning as I grow along.
It's still the same basic meaning and taking.
Its just that many people tainted its original purpose and meaning.
I realize once again, I love humanity but I hate people.














And it's not that I want to have you. All I want is to deserve you
I dig you egghead!

Yesterday was suppose to be a healthy day.
Off i went for a swim while Jasslyn and michelle went for gyming.
My hotel's swimming pool is just so wonderful.
Its open aired and while you are swimming, the busy streets hustle and bustle underneath you.
As you float on your back, you will see all the tall office towering over you.
Movements of ppl still working late in the office.
Lighted offices here and there looks so puny in the mist of the whole buildings.
i get to feel myself detaching away from this busy city for a while. Just that little while.
After which, i soak myself in the jacuzzi. I'm amazed by how therapeutic a long good soak can be.
I promise to go there more often ..
Well swam for an hour and off we went for a chilling session.
Cause it's michelle's last day........
Hey ger! I will miss yo long time!
Nice working with you *huggss*


Went down to The Waiting Bar and well, Mr kelvin wang was there and thus, it means liquor whole night..
TSK
It was supposing to be a healthy day.
Kelvin is like some KPO kept asking abt me and her.
Tard lah. Indelible memories of the past. How can 2 that was once so close be like that?
Heh, its a question that i no longer have the strength to dig out.
I guess we are better off this way. If not we will only end up hurting each other again and again
Therefore Kelvin Wang stop being a kpo pls.
Opps =))

I'm missing my sweets.
Ade is so busy with her flying and stuff.
Ade always flock to new friends! opps =)

Eeki's got to stay with Mr Brandon cause he got 2 weeks off.
Ahahas yesterday meet up with the who who best friend rorrs right!
I forbid you in becoming best friend with her cause you have me!!
The whole MS is my witness =))











The words you say to me are sweet
But the kiss i stole from your lips are even sweeter.

Today was good!
I manage to cobroke with my colleague and when its $2100 each for us.
All right.
Good start for a new month. Way to go koonie!
I want and must hit my target for the month. =))
I wanted to blog so much since 10 am in the morning and well, after putting it off for so many hours, the urge vanished....


I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm young and I'm underpaid
I'm tired but I'm working
I care but I'm restless
I'm here but I'm really gone




I want to bake vanilla cookies..





How i wish
I can lie in your arms all day long, all night long..

I'm skipping lunch today cause I feeling so BLUE
I realize Monday's is a drag.
It's absolutely disgusting and turned off.
But well, hope my week will get better and better as is goes on.
I realize human are pathetic creatures. What's the e point of being nasty to others when all are out for a job fighting for rice bowls?
Sometimes HR practitioners are some F*CUK biatch/Bastard.
Arggh
TARDS TARDS TARDS.

Just read your blog.
I don't know since when we drifted and since when things became different.
I'm not trying to point fingers or save anyone's ass.
Stuff that we used to do together does run through my mind like some movie film.
The talks. The walks. The dance. The laughters.The trips. The promises of being there. The joy. The anger. The sadness. The job. More and more.
Since when did everything change priority?
Since when did all cease to nothing?
Since when did all attitude change?
Since when none wishes to acknowledge there's a problem and rectify it
Since when none wishes to admit their wrongs and courageously learn from their mistake?
Since when none make the effort to connect anymore.


Recieved a mail from Jasslyn. its 5 cents worth of thought.
THE SPOONS
A holy man was having a conversation with the God one day and said "Lord, I would like to know what Heaven and Hell are like."
GOD led the holy man to these two doors.
He opened one of the doors and the holy man looked in.
In the middle of the room was a large round table.
In the middle of the table was a large pot of stew which smelled delicious and made the holy man's mouth water.
The people sitting around the table were thin and sickly. They appeared to be famished.
They were holding spoons with very long handles that were strapped to their arms and each found it possible to reach into the pot of stew and take a spoonful
But because the handle was longer than their arms, they could not get the spoons back into their mouths.
The holy man shuddered at the sight of their misery and suffering.
Then GOD said, "You have seen Hell."

They went to the next room and opened the door. It was exactly the same as the first one. There was the large round table with the large pot of stew which made the holy man's mouth water.
The people were equipped with the same long-handled spoons, but here the people were well nourished and plump, laughing and talking.
The holy man said, "I don't understand."
"It is simple" said GOD, "it requires but one skill. You see, they have learned to feed each other. While the greedy think only of themselves."
"A friend is someone who reaches for your hand, and touches your heart."
"People say true friends must always hold hands, but true friends don't need to hold hands because they know the other hand will always be there."



Be kinder than necessary, for everyone you meet is fighting some kind of battle.












Me and you wil cease to an end
when
All smokers in the world quit smoking and when all cats in the world disappear one day!
Therefore, it spells n-e-v-e-r.
=))

Was sleeping throughout the day like a pig.
I guess i'm getting old.

Yesterday was zouking with my sweets.
Who says you can't have fun wih only 3 ladies only.
So here i m to tell you.
Its superb fun.
I just love the company of my sweets
High high into the skyyyy
Though a little turn off by those desperate crowd.
Why can't guys just keep their dicks to themselves?
Why can't guys just keep their hands to themselves?
Why can't guys just turn on their radar signal to get the hint that we girls are turned off.
Tsk tsk.
No wonder siti always said that guys think with their DICK and not their BRAIN.
But again, i realise not all guys are so dick-ish..
Cause my guy isn't! hehs
Wahaahas
So sweet of him to fetch me from zouk and even sent us for supper.
I HEART HIM
I feel like some little tard sch girl falling in love. hurrs

Well there's more but i'm lazy to do soo.
Yawns.
Shall go catch snakes on the plane with my sweets on weds!


I realise friendship its all about making an effort.
If you can't be bothered, no matter how close you used to be
There will still be a drift.
No matter how close you live near each other, you will reduced to being neighbourhood friends.
However, if a little is made. Things will be different.
But well, i guess people just change..











Around the world, i want you by my side.
Always...

Yesterday was chill day with my sweets!
Chua Yee Hui.
I just love her lah.
Conversation was never hard with her.
No feelings of hesitiaiton or no intention to hide anything.
Both of us has one common bubble hanging over us yesterday.
Our future seems a little bleak ya..
What will our future be like??
Sighs.
I guess what we can do now sweets, is to enjoy what we have now ya?
After which, we proceed to watch one of the highly anitcipated show on my list!
The Devil wears Prada
Its absolutly deliciously nice lor.
I shall not elaebrate on it cause i want all to watch.
I'm giving it 5 1/2 popcorns out of 5 man!
And hereby,
i shall make a confession to my sweets
I did feel like crying lah! whahahs Tears swell but hey, it did not flow kssss
Stop staring at me during those touching parts!
&%$@#%^&



I don't know how true it is.
But
if there is really any hope in repariring the broken down ship, i'm willing.
I'm willing to repair a ship that should not break down.
But well, as usual who will take the first step?
I doubt its you. so i guess its up to me?
I do miss you my dear friend.
Please knock at my door ealry in the morning again and chill with me in my living room watching channel 51 55 56 61 & 62




Feelings of uncertainty still hit me at times.
I still feel a little uncomfortable of knowing.
Knowing it's just a simple dinner and I know it will be unreasonable of me to kick a big fuss abt it.
What makes me uncomfortable is not the dinner affair.
It's the idea of not knowing at all if we did not have that simple conversation. It's insignificant to you maybe. But it does matters to me.
Not wanting to kick a big fuss because it's not worth the energy and time
At times, I'm a little insecure.
At times, I'm a little paranoid.
At times, I feel as if I very important to you
At times, I feel that I'm precious to you and only you.
As long as I'm with you, I feel that I lost the ability to control.
To control my own feelings. My own actions. My own thoughts.
How can someone make such a big impact in my life?
I guess only you could....

I don't wanna run away baby you are the one I need tonight