Tata~
Halloween.
























Eeki msged me and told me how she missed me!
ahahs so sweeeet
We were talking abt last year. I can't believe how time flew past.
Last year Halloween i was still working in River valley's Liquid Kitchen.
I had my Halloween with ken.Lynn.Zhiying.Hadassa.Zg.Alan.YingJie.
We had a few round of drinks and i hopped down to Obar to join the festive.
Eeki.Bran.Chye.Jus
I can even remember Jus drooling over an Obar's Bartender and i was wearing shorts and tees.
Goodness.
We had photos and too much drinks. Gerald was there too and he offered me a few rounds of free drinks. Heh
that shows how fast time fly through our fingertips. tsk
It all seems like just yesterday....

_______________ Edited@3.10pm __________________________
















I'm feeling so drowsy.
Feel like meeting Alice in Wonderland

I feel it in my fingers
I feel it in my toes
Love is all around me and i know its you

Mailbox reaches a total mail 78.
It seems like Singaporeans are forever on a look out for jobs. and yet some who send in their resume did not really have the intention to moved on.or hell fussy abt jobs.

"oh well, i'm looking out for a job but the earliest date i'm willingly to move is after i get my bonus"

"Noteast.notwest.only central.

"I'm looking out for a job. is my boss a female? if it is, i opt out for this"

What nonsense.Bullshit.HolyCrap.

One ridiculous incident
Ghost: "i want somewhere near my hse. preferably west.
Me: "i have a job on hand at the moment. Its located at west. Near your hse with transport picked up at Boon lay mrt @ 8.30"
Ghost: "I think i don't want it. Too early for the pick up"

WTF. its 8.30 early. and she lives like 10 mins away from that MRT stations.
Just suck your thumb and remain monies - less with that kind of attitude.


anways. i received a freaking funny intro letter from some tards.
Was passing it ard for my colleagues and we went laughing like hell.
Apparently he's applying for a job as a product manager in a semiconductor industry.
And here how its goes.

"Hello Lilith,

Ever been to Mt. Everest?
I have. Been there. Done that. Spectacular.
I still have a piece of ice from there.

Ever been to the world's most populous country? The
one with the fastest growing economy in the world?
Ever lived in its fastest growing city, Beijing?
I have. Been living there the last two years,
watching them race into the 21st century. Mind
blowing.

Ever dreamed about being your own boss?
I am a successful business owner. Careful planning
with a meticulous attention to detail. Being mindful
of your surroundings. Paying attention to what others
might not notice - that's how it happened.

Be dynamic. Take a chance. Use this opportunity to
think out of the box and be slightly unconventional.

Give me a call.
Semicon is what I'm about.
Thanks for your time.

T**n "


Wahaha. my Monday does not seem that blue after all.....



_________________Edited @ 3..01pm_______________________

whahs. stupid egghead

Work.work.work.work.work.

Anyways.
I did a real lame thing just now. I msged boy using another nick on Internet Sms chat.

Xenia: Hey, can we be friends. I saw you that night
9678****: sorry no. i love my gf
Xenia: Well, with no strings attached
9678****:Bye!
Xenia: hey hey! but you were looking at me that night
9678****: I think you got the wrong person.

Whahas
I know its lame but he knew it was me and that explains!
But well, it makes my heart jump a mile and melt it all the same. I love you tardy egghead.


Its good to have friends working in your clients place.
Like today.
Steffuu make me the first to know that my clients looking for ppl to work and well, i tried my best to secure most of the position.
With due thanks to steffuu!
I will buy you tonnes of Orea Cookies Cupcakes and drown you in!!
heh

No mood to work at all this week. Must be too much holidays.
Tsk tsk
Shall wait for weekend. 1 more day and i'm free of M hotel.phonecalls.clients.candidates.mentos.internetsms.endlessmsn-ing.bloghopping.friendster-ing.onlineshopping(such a sin).
1 more day and i'm freeeeeeee willy.




Dearest sweets.
You gave me a shock yesterday.
Things will be fine k. sad to say its something predictable isn't it?
Just that it happen right in front of your eyes and you feel so helpless abt it.
pick yourself up and let the grief passed. you need to be strong cause you are needed.
i'll always be here for you. no matter what ya.
be strong dear ger. huggss










Yours truly,
themixedup gf



























Lonely sidewalks, silent night.
Bring the evening, deep inside.
Hold me darling, touch me now.
Let the feelings free tonight.

I managed to cross my impossible targets of $5000
I dserve a pat on my back. well done koonie.

hurs

Anyways, steph's looking up for cheap thailand tix and apartment stay.
Let's hope she brings me good new.
I steal a pic from her blog

This is friday Zouking

Anyways i have tonnes to upload but forever my mind and body ain't coordinating well.
The body simply ignored what my mind commands.
all rights. wad crap.
I''m off to work. hard. for next month disgusting $5000 again

Signing off
the slacking gf

Can't explain it
How you swept me off my feet
You've got me right where you want me

Attendance taking: Boy chen me ade fong quan hao steph denis feelyi xh

majong-ing.moviemarathon-ing on my own.The bed slug.pillow grabber.busywalker.merrymaking.laughterfilling.moneyflowinginandout.

That's how i spend my monday wee morning.
Majong kakis flooded the illegal gambling den in boy's hse.
Well i tried to pick up this impossibletounderstand game and well, though i'm not the future mj-queen. I did manage to win hands down in one game.
What is that called? 5 tai zi mou.
yesh yesh. That's it. Ha beginners luck you call it.
Anyways, i find it too taxing and notspongeabsorbing
i realise i can never understand mj. sighs

Left the gambling den and proceed to my own mini cinema.
I caught john tuckers must die and you me and dupree.
All by myself! The lappy and my own earphones.
My own world.
I lost track of time.
well, next moment i'm drifting inandout and yet i can hear mj washing table.feelyi and denis playing games.Stupid chen goaling here and there and sweetly my boy falling fast aslp beside me.

Anyways.
Catchingup at sp again


yours sweetly
thechill gf











i love feeling you beside me
i love your arms around me
i love you looking at me
i love you love me

I'm loving the feeling of chills instead of clubs.
Love being able to wear shag and slack instead of style and glam
Love being able to wear my face clean and bare instead of crayon on and drawn
Love being able to stone and sit instead of stand and shake
Love being able to breathe the haze instead of breathe thesmoke.thesweat.theliquor.
Love being able to be sweat free and smelling sweet instead of squeezing through sweating bodies and smelling sweaty armpits.

*PS: one thing i hate to admit though. Feeling of high seems to surpassed all.

Was having small talks with boy.
Topic between the couple :
Will both ran out of topics someday? if no, how come some make this as excuse of breakups.

His stand.
If both have drive in life and goals to pursue, they will never be out of topic. They will be there to exchange views and spur each other on to pursue their dreams.That's where the test comes in. Able to achieve what they want and able to keep theirs going. And tt's also when they being to develop a common goal my dear.

My stand.
Well, if both gets caught up in their own pursue. They will be too engrossed till the extend of exhaustion hits them everytime they are home. Slowly and slowly will be the reductions of numbers of phases coming out of their mouth. From phases to words from words to actions.Thus mount to nothing isn't it?

Well we both fall silence and continue our silly games of song guessing....




Anways.
La vivocity later with sweets and bran.
Off to doll


Yours truly
evercurious gf

Yesterday was madness
Went for a movie marathon.

10.45PM Dead man's shoe
1.20AM Dead or Alive
3.05am The Guardian

Dead man' shoe and The guardian are so nice. Couldn't help but tears just rolled.
Damn.
It really worth watching. Big time
Survivors of the remaining were far from many.
Well, only the fittest will survive this long running eyes tiring marathon.



Sometimes i just wonder how did one changes
Is it because of being too dependent. Is it because of giving in too much.
It wasn't the best way to be.
It wasn't the way it should be.
But hell, who can control that.
As days passed as times passed.
It feels as if the drowning in The guardian.
As one struggle to survive, he forgets that he is causing the other to drown.
And there, i realise again. It paints the same picture. Exactly.
Coming to realise a stop must be put.....
In what way or how should it be done.
At a lost. total lost.
Too much irritations and frustration coming the way.
Too much randomness of unhappiness and happiness
Too much closeness and unfamiliarity
Too much of something is bad in the near
Too much of nothing is destroying all.
So how does one strike the balanced?
So how does one define the balanced?
How balance is balanced and how unbalanced is unbalanced..
So tell me will you?














Breathe your word and set me free
Breathe to make me breathe

This is not good.
I minimize going shopping and yet I'm doing it online.
I found a new addiction.
Online shopping.
Tsk tsk.
This is bad. Bad.
But well, i have a good website for dresses!
www.funorders.com

I think gers will love it.
I got to stop.Find a cure for my new addiciton.........


-------------------- EDITED @ 12.50pm--------------------------------
I'm back from lunch and Jasslyn's flying to BKK
Damn.
I want holidays too.
She's like one mad woman dancing ard and singing. Sighs
I want hols. pls pls pls
Anways was on msn with steph. It was hell funny though.
All she does was to ans phonecalls, reading mag, listen to FM, eating sandwiches. And well, the most impt task of the day is to open letterboxes.
6 to be precise.
God. That really sounds busy.
ahahhahahhas. She's a tard














Once I get you up there where the air is rarified
I'll be holding you so near and you may hear angels cheer
Cause we're together

Mid week.
I pray that friday come soon.

Eeki's back and i'm glad.
My sweets bought a lipbam for me!
Ahahahas how sweet.
But well, tt's for me watching over Bran right!
Catch up and meet ups.
Ade don't go sleeping again ya.

Was talking to ning and she suddenly makes me realise what i really wanted to do.
Well adn tt's to work in a magazine. Sighs.
How could i forget abt that.
Monies monies monies
Pls pls pls





I feel real guilty.real sad.real heartbroken.realtouched.realhappy.realmixedup.
I did not know i mean so much. so so much.
I swear upon the stars in the sky. i will never let it opened and rolled again
I never thought that I'll love someone
That was someone else's dream
But you give me something that makes me scared
This could be nothing But I'm willing to give it a try.
A try that i know will last




















If this world is wearing thin and you're thinking of escape
I'll go anywhere with you
Just wrap me up in your arms

I have so much to say but yet i feel so lazy to do so.
Anyways celebrations for my guy started since sat.
Haha.

Sat - Town.Grooming.Shopping.Coffeebean.Geylang-nosignboard.KTV.MOS(again.)
Sat was pretty simple. Dinner was great. All the seafood and meats.Boy's friends were like hell funny.
KTV after meal and zhisheng's like so tard. He got a freaking CUTE cake for boy and boon.
Melvin who's attached back from thailand went to k with thai songs. This is the 1st time in my 20 years of life that friends went to k in freaking thai songs.
The amazing thingy is that thai songs rocks! whahahhas. Lao quan can jolly be a born thai man. His imitations was powerful. whahas
Like a tard
Hopped down to MOS. tsk
Boy and me are offically sick of clubbing!!!!! We don't want to club anymore.
But well, what to do. His friends celebrating for him there. sighs




The 2 bdae boys






















Zhisheng.Laoquan.Melvin























Boy and zhisheng's gf.Xinxin







































Sun - Lazinginbed.Vivocity.MarinaSouth.Steamboat.Acarde!bowling!
Sun started off like any lazy sunday.. Till boy suggested Vivocity.
Well so the whole bunch of us hopped down to Vivo.
Its hell big. and i swear it gave me the feeling of City Square in JB. (lao quan agreeded too)
I saw my mummy too! ahahs she was transferred there for a day to help out.
Next was down to Marina South for steamboat.
Its been a loooooong time since i last went down.
Its reminds me of pr, jas, em, kenneth, qh and kimtee. The steamboat gatherings we always have over there. Heh
Those were the days..
Anways.
Its like a walk down memory lane.
Bowling reminds me of sec sch where we hang out at AMK bowling alley every single day after sch.With samuel.guan.xx.pn.candy.xh.mandy.kavan. and well not forgetting that mad mad woman. heh

I have tonnes of pic to upload but too lazy.
The time will comeee.. All thanks to steph and her cam~













Down the walk of life.
Hand in hand

I'm going to get my watch in 2 hrs time.
I so fcuking exciting.
Shall update tonight tonight!!!

---------------------------EDITED at 10.15pm-----------------------------



My godness!
I finally got my P.I.M.P watch.
Right now i'm fcuking high. high high into the sky.
Now shall let you guys have a candyfeast on my watch.






















































Its a collector PIMP watch.Features 72 LED.
Well, a birthday pressie for my guy.On top of this, i even baked a cheese cake that looks ugly but taste great.
Whatever it is, my guy's contented and happy!





















Keep it safe.safe inside you.
As i have surrender my heart to you.

I'll be on a secret mission today.
And
My assistant for the day will be ning.
Let's hope our mission will be fulfilled.

Read this from Jasslyn's book. and well, find it rather meaningful.
The 3 poison in life
Greed (insatiable desires)
Anger (rage, resentment)
Foolishness (lacking in wisdom)

Greed
One has insatiable desires but lack the wisdom to fulfill them as such he or she will blame others for their unhappiness. Thus, everytime you complain, you choose to be helpless. You'll send the message to the world that interprets " i'm helpless and only interested in staying this way."

Anger
normally one that is full of anger and resentment will never fulfill big in life. Neither will they find satisfaction in life. Because they are forever living in anger and full of resentment. They can never understand what's called appreciation. They must learn to look back and reflect on themselves. Is it the dreadfulness of life or is it just them who caused all this unhappiness?

Foolishness
One exhibiting a lack of good sense of judgment and act with lacking in forethought or caution. Someone like this will always be in the losing end and sometimes end up putting themselves in the downside of life.




All rights.
For my dear readers.
Go think it through and reflect it in your own life....


















When the night falls on you
you're feeling all alone, you won't be on your own
Cause i'll be here, i'll stand by you.

Finally I succumbed to the attacks of the haze.
They got me eventually.
Not only consistent cough and ever blocked nose, I also lost my voice.
Tsk
When's the last time I lost my voice?
I guess that's way back to the days where I will get for SJ training camp and back with no voice.
How could I work with no voice when 70% of my job is connected to phone.
Anyways, I spent my time at home and basically, my butt's rooted to the sofa.
I watch lots of movie on cable and simply just slack my day away.
It really feels god to be able to slack on a working MONDAY.
I want monies. Lotsa monies...........................


My PIMP watch is finally here. All the way from Japan.
I'm looking forward to friday cause that's the day i will be owning it.
yeshhhhh


























Anyways, look how "innovative" my guy is!










On a slightly heavier note.
I realize that I miss my guy.
Its not that we are not spending time together just that he is preoccupied with his exploding thoughts on how to bring his dad's business to a higher level.
Everything I heard of now is tyres.rims.size.orginal.forums.website.15inch.16inch.
I guess in a few months time I can be as gd as he is!
Heh. Not grumbling ya!
Just that I miss sitting down under my block having random talks.
Just that I miss making small talks before we fall asleep.
Just that I miss walking by the big blue sea, holding hands, walkingsidebyside with you. Doing nothing but just staring at the beautiful yet peaceful scenery laid down in front of us.
Just that I miss you even though you are just beside me.




















Just hold my hands and look into my eyes.
You don't have to say much cause i already know by looking into your eyes.

Damn the haze.
Its making my sinus really bad.
PSI reaches 128 now.at 11.29am
Well, i hope and wish that our dearest government will lay a rule that says
' Due to the high PSI, lots of our citizens are having bad attacks. So we have made a decision that all schools and offices shall cease operations for at least a week till situation improve."

You wish. i know i know










Your soul is like a secret that I never could keep
When I look into your eyes I know that it's true
God must have spent a little more time on you

Work's busy.
Phone calls non stop.
Lunch finally came and I had subway.
Yums. Turkey breast with honey oat.

Anyways yesterday was meet - thebf's friends- session. -.-
Meet up with boy's friends and I can't believe I spoke to zhisheng yesterday.
Throughout my 4 years stay in pss, there was never one moment that I can remember speaking to him
And yet, yesterday I talked to him.
How small can the world beeee.
His actually my guy's bestie in sch.
Sighs.
I cannot imagine him telling my guy how nerd and kp i was in sch.
How short and ugly.How irritating i was.How sjab-ing i was. HA
sigh.sigh.sigh.sigh.sigh

But well, I was never ashamed of my sjab-ing. ahahhas.
There's where I grow and teared.Have joy and fun. Shared of troubles and problems.
That's where I used to spent my happiest and glorious time
That's where I had my lowest moment and unhappiest time too.
All in all, i'm glad i have all that past experience.myfriendsadnmyjuniors.




I could hardly keep myself awake.
I could hardly keep my eyes open.
I could hardly wait for work to end......













If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Those three words are said too much
And
they're not enough

Time seems to fly past in the morning and for so slowly the afternoon.
Sigh


Meet up yesterday was nice.
As I've said months of not talking was a long wait. However, its sunshine after the rain.
Crazy hours is exactly what we have expected. ha
But well, we managed to find a nice concept store just next to it.
Whatever. Sounds cool isn't it?
Once you walked into the store, you will see tons of books on the shelf, will displays of CD.
Further in will be the dining area. It looks so nice and cozy.
And next door, will be selling clothes and accessories.
As many will describe. the feel is just so right.
It's been a long time since we last source for jobs.
Well, I'm not jobless. Just that I want to earn more monies.

Anways after which we proceeded to continue touring in Chinatown and well, talks of the past, sch days so on.
K-ster to look for Alan and well long ride home.
Talk abt the past months when we ain't talking. Updating each other on what we both has missed out on each other's life.
Its feels like old times again.
The journey back home. The talks on the train. The lames jokes we offering each other.
While walking that long lonely path home, I suddenly feel nostalgic.
Walking that path reminds me of days where MRT does not exist. LRT does not exist.
Only the wulu Rivermall with no pirated Yakun, that big chunk of construction site and of cause our favorite BUS 86.
It just feels like old time again when we said gd bye as 86 pulled into the 2nd bustop after the expressway.
I would walk that path with my MP3 blasting on.
And again, I'll walked that path after biding good bye, with the earphones in my ear and me deaf to the world.
Immerse in my own thoughts and own flash backs.
There smiling foolishly to the sec sch days and lots of other days that we had gone through.
There wondering what would happen down the road in a few years time.
Felt so overwhelmed by my own emotions.
But whatever it is, I'm gald. glad that all did improved
I have 1 of my long requested bridesmaid by my side again.
Though there's 1 more I'm looking forward to.
ihopebotharereadingthis.
Iguessinthepast.idohavemywrongs.
idoapologiseforthehurtanddisbeliefihavecaused.
whatijusthopefornowisforalltostartalloveragain. Alltobebacktothesameoldtimes.thesameoldfoolingsard.
thesameoldcrackingoflamejokes.
I believe that i'll have 2 of my best bridesmaids by my side when that day ever comes!







And well again, its abtmyguy again
Its our monthly anni again.
Thank you for braving some of the stormy days with me.
Making me crack up laugh like some insane woman with all your lame yet sweet actions.
Making me fall more and more into you.instead of less and less.
Making me feel so angry and pissed that i see red and only red.
Making me feel so sad that nothing can cheer me up and blue remains the only colour i'll see.
Making my tears flow and flow as if nothing can stop. as if my tap couldn't close.
Making me suffer in pain with your biting like a kid all over my arm!
Making me want to tease you more and more when you show me that stupid face.
Making me realise my world would not be as fun and colorful without you.
I love you egghead.

As i grow old in life,
I've learn that even the one person that was not supposed to ever let you down probably will.
Our heart will be broken probably more than once and it just gets harder every time.
And well, we will break hearts too.
So we'll have to remember how it felt when ours was broken.
We'll fight with our best friend.
We'll blame a new love for things an old one did.
We'll cry because time is passing too fast and eventually lose someone we love.
So take too many pictures
Laugh too much
And love like you've never been hurt because i realise every sixty seconds i spend upset is a minute of happiness i'll never get back.
I'm not afraid that my life will end.
I'm just afraid that it will never begin.



My friend sent me this pic and it's just so true






















Crap i can't wait for knock off.

Just caught Shania Twain - From this moment on on the radio
And my boss told me that she dedicated this song to her parents who died in an accident. Together.
How sweet and yet devastating can it be?
Anyways, the lyrics are just so sweet.
Thus i wan to dedicate this song to my guy!


(I do swear that I'll always be there. I'd give anything
and everything and I will always care. Through weakness
and strength, happiness and sorrow, for better, for worse,
I will love you with every beat of my heart.)

From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

I can't believe it!!!!!

Mollie Sue Steenis' out










































I
Really
Cannot
believe
it

Now tell me what's the point of watching America's Next top.............

I choose not to believe.
Mollie's gonna have her next photo shoot.
Mollie's gonna win the next challenge.
Hurs. I'm behaving like some hardcore psychotic.
Anyways, i tried goggling online and i found Cycle 6 winner such a disappointment.
Thus.
But well, i have my eyes locked onto 2 gorgeous ladies in Cycle 7 .



AJ! She is freaking cool can!








































Megan!












































But well, Mollie's still on my top of the list.
With AJ closely behind!
And guess wad?
My guy's jealous of them. whahahs.










ilostmyselfinyoureyes

Hellos.
Monday's here again.
And here I go again.
I'm waiting for golden friday.
Tsk
I have no mood to blog.



It's like a snowball situation. Getting bigger as it rolls. More get into it.
It's like some silent killer illness.
Not any better but in fact getting worse.
Worst still its attacking you in a silent manner.
You never know how far or how deep you were scarred
You never know how deep that impact is
You never know who's in it and who's not.
Who's with and not with




Thanks alot sweets
It means alot. Really











We got a vibe that you can't define
All planets aligned when you looked into my eyes
I lose control and forget everyone, but not the hand I'm holding on