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Back to where i should belong on weekdays.
After 2 days of resting at home, i wish i could rest more!
To Angmobeng bf
yes, yes
I see it crystal clear. You told me before and yet i turn a blind to it.
Only when, then i see it.
High definition crystal clear. Sorry for being that blind and not see it even though it was f*uk clear.
Heh
Loves my dear. Its thrown away i tell you in that big fat rubbish chute
Its left to rot and smell. and i believe will
I love you baby.
This is boring.
Don't preach what you don't do
anyways.
4 more days to go~~
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My letter's been typed and ready for execution
Its all coming so fast and I'm not going to be a Recruit Consultant anymore.
=))
I'm onto what i always dreamt of doing.
And it feels electrifying
This is like the most fc*king emotional morning for me.
I'm not going to pinpoint anything anyone.
Just feels the whole thingy is ridiculous.
Friends should not force but respect decisions made by each others.
Anyways to ning
Thanks for all that. Though I really don't feel you are held responsible. You sensed my insecurities but I make it clear ya. And appreciate the assurance
Cheers to a cliché
F R I E N D S H I P
To the coming 21st pearly!
I'm sorry for the emotional rundowns you had
It was not something I would have wanted. Honestly when that question was asked in another way, I was seriously blaffed.
Its just that it do hurt and i know you had no choice. Unintentionally
No worries, i don't blame you. Not a single bit
Touched that i'm still your good friend after all
Love you sweets.
p/s I would really hope i can wrap dan up and present him to you =))
my ang mobeng bf. I love you.
Thanks for everything
Words that knife would not bring me down.
Cause it will only make me stronger than i have been
Had a real hard time waking up today
But for the sake of my own survival (note salary and not get booted out of current job), I gingerly went to the bathroom and get myself washed up (that's to prevent me falling like chye.opps)
And so travel like a packed sardine and luckily got a seat.
Went concuss for more than half the journey and into the cold box aka my office.
I did the usual and started surfing net. Which is like what's new?
I logged into friendster and started viewing my entire testimonials' history
Has. Memories upon memories
How much things changes within 2 years. Neither long nor short
Anyways
I'm feeling constipated in my mind. I had lots to blog but its not flowing out
I want my bed. My blanket. My smelly mimi and my MERVYN BOO
Until the rainbow burns the stars out of the sky
Until the day that eight times eight times eight is four
Until the day that all this happen, then I will love you no more
I woke up fresh and happy even though I had a restless night yesterday.
I had trouble falling asleep at 12.30a.m (guess I spent too much time trying to plot a plan on how not to talk to my guy the very next day. Heh)
Then I kept waking up every hour. 2.55a.m 3.55a.m
Followed by which I had the most impossible dream ever.
I dreamt of 2 ex good friends and we went camping.
The ridiculous part was they were never in uniform group before and the 3 of us were in NPCC =S
And so the story goes. We went camping and we need passports.
Out of the blue we were in a salon having our hair cut. And my hair was chopped off!
My fringe was a coconut! Its fcuking short, hanging just above my forehead and the other 2 were laughing at me. And I screamed and yeah, I was awake. Hurs
And this is how I spend my night sleeping under my thick warm blanket with my favorite bolster beside me =))
p/s: I wonder why/how did they creep into my dreams.
And talking about friends
Suddenly I have this urge to talk about a long long ago friend
As we grow older, differences of us became more obvious.
From good friends to friends and to nobody
I used to like her. To dislike her. To bitch about her. To abhor her and now to forgive her.
Cause I realize, I was behaving exactly like her. So similar and yet poles apart.
Forgiving the bitching. The hurting of each other. The pretence. The accusing looks. The words that were meant to hurt. The bad
Instead, I remembered the rides. The stays. The happiness. The lameness. The good.
After a talk with my dearest mummy and so she asked:
"What's the point of holding on to hatred? What's the point of holding on to unhappiness? All used to be friends and things turned so down.
Do you think 20 years down the road when you all are all grown up, you all will still continue these silly actions? You all are adults and yet behaving like little kids. If they feel they are better off like this, then let it be. Just learnt from all your mistakes and never repeat them again.
Its part and parcel ger
People come and leave. People love and hurt. People gossip and bitch.
But all will learn.
Every figure in your life is here to teach you something.
People always judge others but never themselves. So if you want to judge anyone, begin with yourself.
Whenever anyone tries to hurt, tell yourself I'll be stronger and better the next time round. Check back on your actions and identify the mistakes. There's always a ying and guo. A beginning leading to this ending. This is how your ma learnt. From the day I married your dad to where I am now. I've learnt and still learning. Learn to be less obstinate and be more forgiving. You all are still young and have more to learn. If all this little things get you out of control, then how are you going to face life?
Parents are always the wisest.
And yeah, i'll learn from all the wise words.
Friends shall be will be. Friends will be shall be.
Oh and. I miss my bestest all of a sudden.
So tell me why I miss you soooo!
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You will reap what you sow.
Anyways i think you got to live with it.
Hope no heartattackes for you while you fume like a ugly chimmey.
For me, i don't give a dang.
It's like the biggest joke in my life. ahahhahahhas
There are times when the intensity of my feelings makes me blind to my own actions or words.
I guess its time for this young lasso here to learn better control over feelings.
There are times where feelings just hit depending on situations and of cause, people
And I can say that I'm pretty easily affected. By words. By actions.
Especially by people who means a lot to me and those who used to mean a lot.
But yet again, I'm learning.
To let go of what isn't meant to be.
To let go of the has/ had happened.
To let go of abhorrence and malevolence
To ignore knifing and ugly glances.
To ignore venom words.
To ignore quidnunc.
To minimize my own foolishness and impulsive actions.
Did learn the painfully tortoise crawling process of handling negativity
Feelings of rejections. Disappointments. Discomfiture. yak yak yakada
But i think i still lack skills.Proper skills in handling feelings on the spot.
Not the post feelings after happening.But the intense feelings that collide head on with you in the face
That might make you regret your actions later after clearing that feel in you.
HA
Seriously what am i talking about. Guess that fully explain the and express the meaning of pleonasm
Crap. Shall stop the crap.
Guess the Blue master of Mondays trying to seep into my veins.
All right. Time to really updates the pics!
Anyways. I have lots more and its really impossible to upload all!
So my dear friends to download the pics, Click here!
Anyways friends! watch this video!!
Watch this! Its hell funny
Okay. and here's crashing over at MOS
Mondays blue spreading its wing into my Tuesday
My Tuesday started off by pulling my lazy bag of bones out of bed .To the Shower. Onto the train and into the office.
Once again, I wormed up in the office refusing sunshine cause I feel like a vampire today.
No one is supposed to look at me in my sleepy tired eyes
No one is supposed to hug me tightly and say hey pretty when I'm fuggy shag
No one is supposed to hang out with short pumpkin (hell, I do feel like one today)
No one is supposed to do anything till I get home after work, bathe and get freshen up like a btl of air fresher. (Ha. Here I go again with my stupid rhyming)
And then, i'll feel alive once again and i can go chill with my sweets
Right now i have tonnes of pictures to upload but yet i feeling so so so so so so l a z y.
Pictures from dian's bdae and crashing over cum camwhore with friends.
Soon. I guess. Soon....
All rights. Finally a phone caught my eye and i'm so gonna have it
Oh ya
And i think the bf loves me no more. Boo~
He is turing gay real soon
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Guys are such big papaya headed banana ugly durian smelly creature.
And i now know why there are more and more pseudohermaphrodite (which is more to the girls side) and more lesbian-sy in the world.
and for now
PISSED OFF fuggy guys
My days of freedom are getting limited.
By next week, i will be back in my squareboxed office and staring at my coloured screen.
I would then proceed to call all my clients and trying to build rapport once again.
Get in orders. meeting sales targets. meeting candidates.
Gosh. i can imagine it. Crystal clear
Ahhhhhh
i resolved not to be naggy and whiny for this new year but at times resolutions are so hard to keep by isn't it?
I shall not nag. I shall not whine. I shall not nag. I shall not whine. I shall not nag. I shall not whine. I shall not nag. I shall not whine. I shall not nag. I shall not whine. I shall not nag. I shall not whine. I shall not nag. I shall not whine. I shall not nag. I shall not whine. I shall not nag. I shall not whine.I shall not nag. I shall not whine. I shall not nag. I shall not whine. I shall not nag. I shall not whine. I shall not nag. I shall not whine. I shall not nag. I shall not whine. I shall not nag. I shall not whine.
Be positive. be positive.
DUH
Seriously, what am i blogging.....
Anyways. let me get a focus.
Okay i caught a movie last night and it touches me to the core.
GRIDIRON GANG
It tells the gritty and powerful emotional story of juvenile detention camp officer Sean Porter (played by the Rock), who, along with another officer Malcolm Moore (by Xzibit), turns a group of hardcore teenage felons into a high school football team in 4 weeks. Confronted with gang rivals and bitter hatred between his teammates, Porter teaches some hard lessons (and learns some himself) as the kids gain a sense of self respect and responsibility.......
This movie is hell damn good movie.
I can't denied i was moved to tears. Its once again about forgiveness, acceptance and loving me.
These are always inevitably linked and forged as one isn't it?
It do take some more effort than others to fully let themselves washes the grudge away and let forgiveness flood in their blood.
It do take some more effort to accept and some never able being to accept others.Despite them changing for the better or trying to amend their mistakes of the past.
It do take many out there to learn and re - learn how to love yourself more and cherish more. Instead of less and be abusive to yourself.
However, too many of loving me do change one to a selfish porklad.
So where do we stand now and where do we end now?
How do one know where's the limit and how do one know where to begin.
I guess that's the purpose of living.
Endless learning. Endless loving. Endless forgiving. Endless accepting.
Endless lessons to this end able life.
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Officially back from Bkk.
Nothing can be dull when 2 bestest gets on a holiday.
It was self entertainment throughout.
We lived like a queen there. Its self pampering throughout.
Massage (a must everyday).nails.hairs.buffet.shopping.
Seriously, i'm still lazy.
To T Y P E.
fong sorry. i'm lazy! i'll blog more tml =)))))
In less than a week of 2007, I'm grotesquely sick with the flu virus.
Its no mean feat. I puked and puked. sneeze and sneeze for 58773671327 times in a day and guess what? I still get myself to work yesterday.
Ended up being sent home and a visit to Raffles Medical and yeah, home bounded today.
But still koonie being koonie. Sneaked out yesterday and have a fun meet up with girlies.
Heh.
Topics was fun.daring.gossipy.
We spook and got spooked
We bitch and got bitched
We laugh at amusing people and get unbelievably disgusted at one's actions.
It's all about companion.friendship.laughter.
This do wrapped up by sickly day.
One turned off point was BKK no more. sighs
Eeki! You have brows. I honoured my word didn't i =))
Ain't we PRWEETY!
All rights. i got to ciaos.
Meeting to cancel my long awaited trip.
Fc*k
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All rights. Back from the loony trip to Chinatown.
After an hour plus of pondering. "How ah" "Should we" "Aiya how"
Both indecisive girlies made up our mind.
We are going BKK after all. Though we are not sure how wise the choice is but anyways, friends just wish us Bon voyage and see you soon wishes k!
