Welcome year 2007.
It seems that I'm being less articulate then usual. Hurrs
Okay I admit I'm just being a plain lazy.
As usual, many will do a closure on how bad/sad/disappointing 2006 was and start looking back, feeling emo and resolved not to be the same again.
Well, I'm one of the many after all.

Let's see.
2006 is a mixture of hopes and disappointments. Ups and downs. Reunion and separations.
Many of "this will be my lucky breaks" turns out to be not so lucky after all.
Many of "things will get better after all" turns out to be not so after all.
Many a times in 2006, I felt like a marionette. Not the one in control of my own destiny. If that's what u called it.
I felt rather random and floating. With no goals and just idle my days away.
Pretending to work.
Pretending to be happy.
Pretending to be oblivious.
Pretending that things will be fine.
Pretending that I'm not affected.
Life of pretence I led.

I got separated from the ones I loved most and along the path of recovery, I met a few more precious ones.
I thought I lost 2 for good. Though things aren't back to the old, I managed to savage one.
The other has thoughts I can't fathom. Things that are meant to be will be. Isn't it?
When I thought I'll wither alone, there came amazing hands that pulled me through.
I'm really really thankful to this bunch of friends who were by my side all the way through my darkest.
Eeki, peter Brandon, Desmond, teddy, Wei dian and adelene. =))
And the one that play the biggest part of all, will be my family.
Once again, I fall back into the comfy arms of my family. The way they cared so much touches me and makes me realized again in shame, no matter what happen, no matter how down I get, my mum and sisters are always there for me.
Hell yeah, I survived. By far the 2nd biggest crisis of my life.

Anyways,
In the year 2006 I met the one who make me fall head over heels in love.
One who makes me feel I can be so alive. One who makes me feels its sunshine and rainbows everyday. One who makes my heart beat skipped and beat faster than an egg beater =)).
One who gave me a feeling that I never had before.
Because of some senseless argument, we parted away. Back into each own world and own path.
I swear it took me hell lotsa of determinations and self control to force myself to moved on.
I did. I tried. But I realize I can't.
I back again into the arms of the devil. The devil that stole my heart once again. Again.
Once again, I can breathe. The air of love smells so sweet and hypnotizing.
Once again, I'm alive. Stupidly indulging shamelessly in the unconditional love he showered me with.
I love my angmobeng boyfriend. More and more. More and more! Though he do pissed me off at times =))

It's all about finding, losing, learning and cherishing. That wrapped up my 2006.



In 2007, I want not to be an agnostic anymore.
No more non-comittments and restlessness. I seriously hope!