Counting down to the BIG DAY

This is the sweetest song ever.
and

its for my boy!!!

Have you ever thought of what makes you sad in life and after feeling it all, look at things from another perspective?

As you progress older in life, you tend to realize this 3 letter words means different things at different point in life.
Being sad means your loved ones chose not to believe in you, feel scare of you to confide their darkest secret.
Being sad means your loved ones chose to wear a mask of happiness to protect that secret. That ugly truth which is suffocating them.Making them unable to breathe. Making them feeling like an overstretch rubber band. To the point of breaking down.
Being sad means you don't even know what's happening to them. How overload they are. How they wish the truth could be out and how they wish they could hug you, cry and bleed that ugly truth out....
Being sad means to find that ugly little thing called truth from other sources and not your love ones. To absorb all in like a sponge. Sponging yourself all the way till you could not hold on anymore and all start to spill out. Overflow.Flooded with it all.

after all that roller coaster, calm down and give it a thought.
Giving that thought from another perspective.

Knowing that your loved ones had do all they could to protect you from all the darkness and earth sucking sadness.
Knowing that they would rather suffer alone then to drag you into the black hole with them
Knowing that they would give all they could to show they love you even when they struugle to do so.
Knowing that they would love you in the way they know how to even when its the tough way.


so if a piece of paper is shown with a sun hiding behind a mountain.
Is it seen as sunrise or as a sunset?



and



That depends on what's your perspective is........

Human relationships can be a tricky business at times.
and
it do tires me out.

one more time....

somehow or rather, this video breaks my heart.

Sudden urge.
Its one of the few rare moments that i felt since so long.
It might seem so simple and insignificant but well.
I had a romantic dinner with the boy under the sun setting sky.
Randomly watching ppl walk by.
Talking abt my day at work and pretty normal stuff.
As we happily chomp down my zinger burger and him, 2 piece chicken over at sun plaza
Hahahahaha

And i told him that ever since we are together the chances of us having dinner by some fancy romantic places got lesser and so, i have to make do with what we did today and yet feel so blessed.
After dinner, we sat down by the bench outside kfc while boy took a smoke.
It soooo sooo damn simple but why do i feel so blessed?
Its one of the few rare moments that capture how simple and pure true contentment and happiness can be

Its been long since the days of waking up early in the morning, squeezing onto jam packed MRT and feeling the rush of going to work on time.
Come to think of it, I'm kind of missing the days.
Though i dread the fact of having to fret over what to wear and all.
Days of trainings have been good.
New friends and new environment.
Interesting ppl I've been meeting and absorbing all i can from all of them
Unit trusts, investment links, interest factor blah blah blah.
Its hard to absorb all but somehow or rather, they have imprinted themselves into my memory.
I'm embarking onto another journey of my life.
Unfamiliar faces, job scope and much much more to learn.
But I'm sure that all this will not become the obstacles in my life.
Considering all this, its so much better than my life in HY.
I can have control over my timing and all.

And
I'm also starting a new chapter in my life with my dear boy.
We'll be weaving our own story together and brave all together.
All things in my life seem to be falling in place.
One more chance to prove my worthwhile and definitely to push myself over limits that i have not seen or been to.

Life is hard and money does not come easily
but i can see big bucks rolling if i put in the effort i did when I'm in HY.
And i want to get my MUI MUI BAG!!!!!!!!!
i was drooling over it when my boy and i went shopping for our rings last Sunday!

MUI MUI BAG
OLD TRAFFORD TRIP FOR MY BOY
LOTS AND LOTS OF TREATS FOR MY FAMILY!

let's all work hard towards our life full of dreams unfullfilled!!

There goes another year of my youth.
Yesterday i had the least happening and yet most contented birthday "mini" celebration with all my loved ones.
After many years of birthday clubbing, yesterday was the most chilled of all.
Town with the bf shopping for my epilator and Carrefour, followed by friend visiting and finally chilling down at Gloria's jeans.
After which dinner buffet with my loved ones and k-ing with a mini cake surprise.

I felt so contented with my life at the moment.
Though i do not have tonnes of money to splurge or model -like looks and figure. (HA) I have many things that normal ppl have but failed to cherish it.
I have wonderful friends that stand by me in my worst and best. I have wonderful sisters and mother and I have my dearest and funniest love of my life.
These are all the simplest and un-tainted love one could have but often blinded and not realizing it.
I guess when you tend to get older (hahahahh) one will starts to appreciate the finest thing in life. For me, that's the unconditional love and unselfish care i have from all my precious ppl in my life.
Thank you to all who came and stay.
Thank you to all who came and left.
For every single person i believe i have learn many.

And i had the most wonderful 23rd of my life.

My Nokia N81 had died on me!
After many days of battling with it, finally it is the one who surrendered.
Days of hanging on 1 screen and default keypads which could not work, no matter how hard you press on it and no freaking numbers will be out.
Phone ringing and once you answered, you can hear some "pongggggg" sound as though some keys were stuck and the the pressing tone could be heard.
My worst nightmare were numbers started appearing on the screen as though someone actually keyed it in and whenever i tried to msg or enter into the menu, it will start exiting by itself again and again and again. Till i feel like strangling the phone and hammering it into thousand pieces!!!
The hardest part was after i had switch the phone off and switch it on, i CAN'T key in my password as the number pad would not respond at all.
ARGHHH

So here i bid adios to my loved of 2 years and embrace (temporary) Sony Ericsson which is quite irritating to use though.
I guess a lazy person like me, unwilling to learn the how to(s) of other phones is still best sticking back to nokia.

on random,
there's one SUP PERSON who called and hang up real fast. Expecting me to call back!!!!!
And it happen like 4 to 5 times already!!
Irritating shit and super SUP shit. I will not call you back!!!
I hope my msg wake you up. PISS OFF SUP ZHU!



okay i think i'm in a super bad mood

I tried studying and in the end, i ended up playing fashion wars and you- tubing!
And i found a few clips that got me laughing and laughing and laughing and on...

It's a hit, yet again

Kind of miss working.
I'm freaking bored everyday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHO WANTS TO ASK ME OUT TML??????????

The bf's out of town.
Off to BKK for some business trip. Testing of new tyres and products.
Meanwhile I'll really make good use to focus on my studies this few days!
More business please!

i'm pretty much into song lately!




and my jaw dislocated while hearing this little girl sing

Happy Birthday to my dear EEKI!
Hope you will had tonnes of fun and happiness in your life!
Though we are not those kind of bff that grew up together nor been through school together. Sometimes no one understand me like you do! You would know what i wanted to say or what's in my mind at times and vice versa.
Even though there are times where we would get a little irritated at each other, we would learn to tolerate. Cause this is what being true to our friendship is.
All those nonsense we did together, the secrets we shared, the saddest time i had and you stood by me. Its enough, more than enough.
So i'll be a little corny here. I love you babe!
Happy birthday again ya!!!

Batam was chill.
Here are some of my fav pics

CNY

I've found a song that totally describe my boy!
Especially the chorus part



I've Got A Man With Two Left Feet
And When He Dances Up To The Beat
I Really Think That He Should Know
That His Rythyms Go Go Go.

(Chorus)
Does He Wash Up Never Wash Up
Does He Clean Up No He Never Cleans Up
Does He Brush Up Never Brushed Up
He Does Nothing The Boy Does Nothing.

Hey Boy How You Been
I've Got A 1000 Lines
Where Do I Begin.
And I've Been Here Been There Travelling.
I Saw You At The Corner
My Vibe Kicked In.
Two Films I Clock You Wearing Tight Jeans
And A Real Nice Suit You Were Smiling Like You Were Just 17
I Asked You For A Dance You Said Yes Please.

Take A Sip Of Dancing Juice
Everybodys On To You To The Left Then To The Right
Everybody Hit The Rythym Its On Tonight
Im Gonna Fell The Beat Within My Soul
I Need A Man To Take Control.
Let The Melody Blow You All Away.

(Chorus)

Work It Now Work It Work It Now
Do The Mambo Shake It All Round Now
Everybody On The Floor Now Let Me See You Clap Your Hands

I Wanna See You Work
I Wanna See You Move Your Body
And Turn I Wanna See You Shake Your Hips
And Learn I Wanna See You Work It Work It Work It Out Now, Hey. (x2)

(Chorus)

And If The Man Can't Dance
He Gets A Second Chance
Do The Mambo Shake It All Around Now (x5)