All that glitters is not gold

and yes
i want to go to Venice
a city that is half submerged in water
and
i want to go there before its gone

It's been one tiring monday.
I did not have a good night rest at all.
Waking up at all the weird timings.
2ish 4ish 6ish 7 and finally till my alarm rings
How sucky can it be.
Sucky friday i had and sometimes i feel like i have enough.
But what can i do other than swallowing my pride for money.
hehs

I'm tired from lack of sleep
I'm tired from feeling angry and stress
I'm tired being human
haaa
BUT
I'm starting to feel that we are more like chameleons
Ever changing.
It was told that chameleon's colour change is used as an expression of the physiological condition of the lizard
It's like humans is it?
One moment we can be like this and other we are like that.
We change to fit into the environment
We change accordingly to our emotions.
Times when one can be so close and the next moment turn your back against others
Times when we can bare out hearts out to one another and the next moment shut yourself up ever so tightly.
But
There are also times when you thought u are all alone and out of the sudden all those who are against you became your pillar of support
So tell me
How different are we from a chameleon?
With our ever changing emotions colours and behavior?


I guess the best part of today was my drive home.
Blasting music in my car
Feeling the breeze on my face
Feeling the sunshine warming my face
It's like the epitome of happiness







The world's your runway
Put your heels on and walk your walk

Another night out over at Dragonfly.
Nv really thought that i would hang out there.
Started out slow and tempo picked up.
Many ended up high again
haa
Funny as it seems.
Df started everything isn't it?
How a simple gathering can bond all together.
I'm enjoying my life now.
There's focus
There's goals and target
There's friends and great colleagues.
There's beautiful stories.
There's fun and laughter
and there's me enjoying all i have.

My world is constantly changing
Sometimes i feel that is hard to keep in steps with myself
Sometimes i feel myself wanting more and more and yet i want to slow everything down
Sometimes i feel myself wanting nothing at all.
and yeah i'm being contradicting here again
well that's me
and
i love being me =)









Have you ever feel that sometimes you just want to rebel for once
Have you ever feel that sometimes wrongs can be beautiful
Have you ever feel that
Have you

Last night was hours of mj-ing into the wee morning.
Only managed to hit the bed ard 5.
My afternoon was spent lunching with my usual groupies.
and now finally i can slack ard for a while more before going over to friend's side for steamboat.
Tell me how to lose weight if i always have gatherings with good food???!!

heh

anyways overdue pics.

































as awkward as it is.
it was not as bad as i thought it will be.
and i enjoyed it myself.
etched in memories! =))

And i'm happy almost every other days recently.

As mentioned, i went to my cousin's wedding and the wedding gift they left for the guests were packs of poker cards.

On each poker cards, there are many many fantastic love quotes.

Haa i'm a sucker for love quotes.

Quoted

" There's no remedy for love

but

to love more "

-Thoreau-

Quoted

" Love is much like a wild rose beautiful and calm,

but willing to draw blood in its defense"

-Mark Overby-

Beautiful quotes ain't they?

Much more mentioned but only 2 chosen as they leave the deepest impression .

let's see if i can create mine.

Love can be beautiful and short lived like fireworks

or love can be everlasting like fireworks.

as we can reignite it again and again.

hahah sounds like shit

But well sounds good to me =))

And i just received a phone call from a damn good telesales person
SALUTE U AUNTIE!

Its been ages since i met a really good telesales person.
I'm wowed!
hahhaha

Shagged max.

Straight 7 hours of mj-ing

Very contented as my gambling urge was fully curbed for this week.

Haa

Wanted to do the shoots today and yet again, we delayed it.

Tonnes of clothes to be clear and i guess our customers must have thought that we closed down!

Hahahha

Been weeks or months since we last updated our blog shop.

I've got to get my ass down for the shoots and the thought of changing in and out of the clothes tires me out enough.

Need to get some beauty sleep now.

Wedding dinner later on and i hate the thought of entertaining people whom i'm not close with.

ZzzZZZZZZzzzz

Do we show less patience and less understanding to the people we love?

Do we flare up way more easily and less tolerant to the people we love?

Do we?

Do you?

Do i?

Bring me back to fairyland

There are thousands and thousands of people out there

And out of these thousands, many will walk in and out of my life

What brings all these people in and what brings them out?

Have you ever feel that when one walk in and out, there's a hint of regret.

Regretting not knowing the person earlier

Regretting not cherishing the relationship

Regretting letting the person leave

However, there are also people in your life that makes you feel that they should not be in at all.

For the right reasons or for the wrong reasons

And

There's always be this person who will leave a deep deep impression on you and an impact in your life.

I wonder how all these is arranged?

At which part/phase of your life should you meet this person?

What if its not the correct timing and what if it is a little too late.

What if ...

What if ...

What if ...

What if this could be a beautiful beginning

What if this could be the correct thing

What if we can predict all

What if we can arrange who

Tonnes of what if

Tonnes of wondering why

and

its never ending..

so i should bin all these thoughts and enjoy the present =))

i declutter my life a little today.

By

Starting from my wardrobe =)





Oh ya!
I loved the top my sisters' bought for me as my bdae pressie.
Thank you!!! I love you both!

Love is one profound language that we will all try our very best to learn, to understand and to master it.
However, known to all, it is one deep chap.
No matter how hard we try
No matter how defensive we try to be against it
We always ended up bruised and hurt.
And yet
We give love another shot. again and again.
Can love turn into a habit or can love break out of it?
Can love turns all round or its just for the youngs.
Love doesn't exist in the adult world and it does not matter?

I'm lost and hungrily searching for an answer.
And i know
I'll be just another one out on the street doing so.





How come the stars don't shine and smile at me tonight?
How come my midnight blue sky seems especially dark to me tonight?

somehow or rather..
i feel that something is missing in my life.
do you ever have this kind of feeling?







Would you dance into steps with me.

My weekends are almost over.
How great if i have some special magic that make time stand still or prevent it from moving forward.
I'll be back to days of sales and meeting targets.
Well.....

I had one great weekend.
All boxes on my self grooming checklist are checked.
Sex and the city 2 was great! My love.
I did have my short getaway. Off to bran's Malaysia hse again.
Not exactly relaxing but i did cleared my mind a little.
Unclogged it and have some fun.
and oh ya. i lost my voice =(










as i stare out into the beautiful black sky.
Sparkles of diamonds hang up in the sky.
Counting it one by one.
I wonder who's staring at the same sky as i do.

The long awaited long weekend is finally here.
and the best part: My hubby left me here all alone in Singapore.
I'm trying my best to fill my days and keep myself busy.
Starting right with my favourite activity.
Thinking.
hahhaha.

Well I'm a thinker. I suppose and i realise something.
I realised that I'm not as depended on him as i thought i am.
Its great to find a shoulder to lean on after many years of being the pillar of support.
However, along the way i lose a little of myself each day.
A little of my independence
A little of my self reliance.

and yes, I'm working hard on finding myself back a little more each day.

I have many things on my mind and i wish i could pour it all out.
But i find it hard at times. Trying to piece all together and roll it out in one smooth paragraph.
My mind's all jumbled up.
My thoughts are everywhere.
Would my hyperactive brain be kind enough to let me rest for just a while?
I need a holiday desperately.
Away from all. Away from all.










Where would it end up ?
Where would it start?

I dread goodbyes.
I really do.

And that happens to be part and parcel of life.
I hate watching loved ones leaving.
I abhor the process of healing.
I hate it when ppl say time will heal all wounds.
Because the wound will nv be heal. It will only reopen when its being touched on .

22nd May 2010
May you rest in peace.

fleeting moment.
fleeting beauty.

no beginning so we don't need an ending.
short lived like fireworks but etched in memories.
deep in