lily love

2010-07-17T11:42:00.000+08:00

All that glitters is not gold

2010-06-29T22:08:00.003+08:00

and yes
i want to go to Venice
a city that is half submerged in water
and
i want to go there before its gone

2010-06-28T21:23:00.001+08:00

It's been one tiring monday.
I did not have a good night rest at all.
Waking up at all the weird timings.
2ish 4ish 6ish 7 and finally till my alarm rings
How sucky can it be.
Sucky friday i had and sometimes i feel like i have enough.
But what can i do other than swallowing my pride for money.
hehs

I'm tired from lack of sleep
I'm tired from feeling angry and stress
I'm tired being human
haaa
BUT
I'm starting to feel that we are more like chameleons
Ever changing.
It was told that chameleon's colour change is used as an expression of the physiological condition of the lizard
It's like humans is it?
One moment we can be like this and other we are like that.
We change to fit into the environment
We change accordingly to our emotions.
Times when one can be so close and the next moment turn your back against others
Times when we can bare out hearts out to one another and the next moment shut yourself up ever so tightly.
But
There are also times when you thought u are all alone and out of the sudden all those who are against you became your pillar of support
So tell me
How different are we from a chameleon?
With our ever changing emotions colours and behavior?

I guess the best part of today was my drive home.
Blasting music in my car
Feeling the breeze on my face
Feeling the sunshine warming my face
It's like the epitome of happiness

The world's your runway
Put your heels on and walk your walk

2010-06-26T18:42:00.003+08:00

Another night out over at Dragonfly.
Nv really thought that i would hang out there.
Started out slow and tempo picked up.
Many ended up high again
haa
Funny as it seems.
Df started everything isn't it?
How a simple gathering can bond all together.
I'm enjoying my life now.
There's focus
There's goals and target
There's friends and great colleagues.
There's beautiful stories.
There's fun and laughter
and there's me enjoying all i have.

My world is constantly changing
Sometimes i feel that is hard to keep in steps with myself
Sometimes i feel myself wanting more and more and yet i want to slow everything down
Sometimes i feel myself wanting nothing at all.
and yeah i'm being contradicting here again
well that's me
and
i love being me =)

Have you ever feel that sometimes you just want to rebel for once
Have you ever feel that sometimes wrongs can be beautiful
Have you ever feel that
Have you

2010-06-19T18:42:00.008+08:00

Last night was hours of mj-ing into the wee morning.
Only managed to hit the bed ard 5.
My afternoon was spent lunching with my usual groupies.
and now finally i can slack ard for a while more before going over to friend's side for steamboat.
Tell me how to lose weight if i always have gatherings with good food???!!

heh

anyways overdue pics.

as awkward as it is.
it was not as bad as i thought it will be.
and i enjoyed it myself.
etched in memories! =))

2010-06-16T23:26:00.002+08:00

And i'm happy almost every other days recently.

As mentioned, i went to my cousin's wedding and the wedding gift they left for the guests were packs of poker cards.

On each poker cards, there are many many fantastic love quotes.

Haa i'm a sucker for love quotes.

Quoted

" There's no remedy for love

but

to love more "

-Thoreau-

Quoted

" Love is much like a wild rose beautiful and calm,

but willing to draw blood in its defense"

-Mark Overby-

Beautiful quotes ain't they?

Much more mentioned but only 2 chosen as they leave the deepest impression .

let's see if i can create mine.

Love can be beautiful and short lived like fireworks

or love can be everlasting like fireworks.

as we can reignite it again and again.

hahah sounds like shit

But well sounds good to me =))

2010-06-13T14:40:00.000+08:00

And i just received a phone call from a damn good telesales person
SALUTE U AUNTIE!

Its been ages since i met a really good telesales person.
I'm wowed!
hahhaha

2010-06-13T04:13:00.002+08:00

Shagged max.

Straight 7 hours of mj-ing

Very contented as my gambling urge was fully curbed for this week.

Haa

Wanted to do the shoots today and yet again, we delayed it.

Tonnes of clothes to be clear and i guess our customers must have thought that we closed down!

Hahahha

Been weeks or months since we last updated our blog shop.

I've got to get my ass down for the shoots and the thought of changing in and out of the clothes tires me out enough.

Need to get some beauty sleep now.

Wedding dinner later on and i hate the thought of entertaining people whom i'm not close with.

ZzzZZZZZZzzzz

2010-06-12T17:23:00.003+08:00

Do we show less patience and less understanding to the people we love?

Do we flare up way more easily and less tolerant to the people we love?

Do we?

Do you?

Do i?

Bring me back to fairyland

2010-06-11T23:08:00.002+08:00

There are thousands and thousands of people out there

And out of these thousands, many will walk in and out of my life

What brings all these people in and what brings them out?

Have you ever feel that when one walk in and out, there's a hint of regret.

Regretting not knowing the person earlier

Regretting not cherishing the relationship

Regretting letting the person leave

However, there are also people in your life that makes you feel that they should not be in at all.

For the right reasons or for the wrong reasons

And

There's always be this person who will leave a deep deep impression on you and an impact in your life.

I wonder how all these is arranged?

At which part/phase of your life should you meet this person?

What if its not the correct timing and what if it is a little too late.

What if ...

What if this could be a beautiful beginning

What if this could be the correct thing

What if we can predict all

What if we can arrange who

Tonnes of what if

Tonnes of wondering why

and

its never ending..

so i should bin all these thoughts and enjoy the present =))

2010-06-08T23:54:00.003+08:00

i declutter my life a little today.

By

Starting from my wardrobe =)

Oh ya!
I loved the top my sisters' bought for me as my bdae pressie.
Thank you!!! I love you both!

2010-06-07T23:57:00.002+08:00

Love is one profound language that we will all try our very best to learn, to understand and to master it.
However, known to all, it is one deep chap.
No matter how hard we try
No matter how defensive we try to be against it
We always ended up bruised and hurt.
And yet
We give love another shot. again and again.
Can love turn into a habit or can love break out of it?
Can love turns all round or its just for the youngs.
Love doesn't exist in the adult world and it does not matter?

I'm lost and hungrily searching for an answer.
And i know
I'll be just another one out on the street doing so.

How come the stars don't shine and smile at me tonight?
How come my midnight blue sky seems especially dark to me tonight?

2010-05-31T22:33:00.003+08:00

somehow or rather..
i feel that something is missing in my life.
do you ever have this kind of feeling?

Would you dance into steps with me.

2010-05-30T21:13:00.002+08:00

My weekends are almost over.
How great if i have some special magic that make time stand still or prevent it from moving forward.
I'll be back to days of sales and meeting targets.
Well.....

I had one great weekend.
All boxes on my self grooming checklist are checked.
Sex and the city 2 was great! My love.
I did have my short getaway. Off to bran's Malaysia hse again.
Not exactly relaxing but i did cleared my mind a little.
Unclogged it and have some fun.
and oh ya. i lost my voice =(

as i stare out into the beautiful black sky.
Sparkles of diamonds hang up in the sky.
Counting it one by one.
I wonder who's staring at the same sky as i do.

2010-05-27T22:15:00.003+08:00

The long awaited long weekend is finally here.
and the best part: My hubby left me here all alone in Singapore.
I'm trying my best to fill my days and keep myself busy.
Starting right with my favourite activity.
Thinking.
hahhaha.

Well I'm a thinker. I suppose and i realise something.
I realised that I'm not as depended on him as i thought i am.
Its great to find a shoulder to lean on after many years of being the pillar of support.
However, along the way i lose a little of myself each day.
A little of my independence
A little of my self reliance.

and yes, I'm working hard on finding myself back a little more each day.

I have many things on my mind and i wish i could pour it all out.
But i find it hard at times. Trying to piece all together and roll it out in one smooth paragraph.
My mind's all jumbled up.
My thoughts are everywhere.
Would my hyperactive brain be kind enough to let me rest for just a while?
I need a holiday desperately.
Away from all. Away from all.

Where would it end up ?
Where would it start?

2010-05-23T15:13:00.002+08:00

I dread goodbyes.
I really do.

And that happens to be part and parcel of life.
I hate watching loved ones leaving.
I abhor the process of healing.
I hate it when ppl say time will heal all wounds.
Because the wound will nv be heal. It will only reopen when its being touched on .

22nd May 2010
May you rest in peace.

2010-05-22T20:51:00.003+08:00

fleeting moment.
fleeting beauty.

no beginning so we don't need an ending.
short lived like fireworks but etched in memories.
deep in

2009-09-07T18:59:00.001+08:00

Counting down to the BIG DAY

2009-09-01T17:34:00.001+08:00

This is the sweetest song ever.
and

its for my boy!!!

2009-08-25T13:23:00.002+08:00

Have you ever thought of what makes you sad in life and after feeling it all, look at things from another perspective?

As you progress older in life, you tend to realize this 3 letter words means different things at different point in life.
Being sad means your loved ones chose not to believe in you, feel scare of you to confide their darkest secret.
Being sad means your loved ones chose to wear a mask of happiness to protect that secret. That ugly truth which is suffocating them.Making them unable to breathe. Making them feeling like an overstretch rubber band. To the point of breaking down.
Being sad means you don't even know what's happening to them. How overload they are. How they wish the truth could be out and how they wish they could hug you, cry and bleed that ugly truth out....
Being sad means to find that ugly little thing called truth from other sources and not your love ones. To absorb all in like a sponge. Sponging yourself all the way till you could not hold on anymore and all start to spill out. Overflow.Flooded with it all.

after all that roller coaster, calm down and give it a thought.
Giving that thought from another perspective.

Knowing that your loved ones had do all they could to protect you from all the darkness and earth sucking sadness.
Knowing that they would rather suffer alone then to drag you into the black hole with them
Knowing that they would give all they could to show they love you even when they struugle to do so.
Knowing that they would love you in the way they know how to even when its the tough way.

so if a piece of paper is shown with a sun hiding behind a mountain.
Is it seen as sunrise or as a sunset?

and

That depends on what's your perspective is........

2009-08-02T23:06:00.003+08:00

Human relationships can be a tricky business at times.
and
it do tires me out.

one more time....

2009-07-09T11:53:00.000+08:00

somehow or rather, this video breaks my heart.

2009-06-19T19:47:00.008+08:00

Sudden urge.
Its one of the few rare moments that i felt since so long.
It might seem so simple and insignificant but well.
I had a romantic dinner with the boy under the sun setting sky.
Randomly watching ppl walk by.
Talking abt my day at work and pretty normal stuff.
As we happily chomp down my zinger burger and him, 2 piece chicken over at sun plaza
Hahahahaha

And i told him that ever since we are together the chances of us having dinner by some fancy romantic places got lesser and so, i have to make do with what we did today and yet feel so blessed.
After dinner, we sat down by the bench outside kfc while boy took a smoke.
It soooo sooo damn simple but why do i feel so blessed?
Its one of the few rare moments that capture how simple and pure true contentment and happiness can be

2009-06-16T21:13:00.007+08:00

Its been long since the days of waking up early in the morning, squeezing onto jam packed MRT and feeling the rush of going to work on time.
Come to think of it, I'm kind of missing the days.
Though i dread the fact of having to fret over what to wear and all.
Days of trainings have been good.
New friends and new environment.
Interesting ppl I've been meeting and absorbing all i can from all of them
Unit trusts, investment links, interest factor blah blah blah.
Its hard to absorb all but somehow or rather, they have imprinted themselves into my memory.
I'm embarking onto another journey of my life.
Unfamiliar faces, job scope and much much more to learn.
But I'm sure that all this will not become the obstacles in my life.
Considering all this, its so much better than my life in HY.
I can have control over my timing and all.

And
I'm also starting a new chapter in my life with my dear boy.
We'll be weaving our own story together and brave all together.
All things in my life seem to be falling in place.
One more chance to prove my worthwhile and definitely to push myself over limits that i have not seen or been to.

Life is hard and money does not come easily
but i can see big bucks rolling if i put in the effort i did when I'm in HY.
And i want to get my MUI MUI BAG!!!!!!!!!
i was drooling over it when my boy and i went shopping for our rings last Sunday!

MUI MUI BAG
OLD TRAFFORD TRIP FOR MY BOY
LOTS AND LOTS OF TREATS FOR MY FAMILY!

let's all work hard towards our life full of dreams unfullfilled!!

2009-05-18T10:34:00.005+08:00

There goes another year of my youth.
Yesterday i had the least happening and yet most contented birthday "mini" celebration with all my loved ones.
After many years of birthday clubbing, yesterday was the most chilled of all.
Town with the bf shopping for my epilator and Carrefour, followed by friend visiting and finally chilling down at Gloria's jeans.
After which dinner buffet with my loved ones and k-ing with a mini cake surprise.

I felt so contented with my life at the moment.
Though i do not have tonnes of money to splurge or model -like looks and figure. (HA) I have many things that normal ppl have but failed to cherish it.
I have wonderful friends that stand by me in my worst and best. I have wonderful sisters and mother and I have my dearest and funniest love of my life.
These are all the simplest and un-tainted love one could have but often blinded and not realizing it.
I guess when you tend to get older (hahahahh) one will starts to appreciate the finest thing in life. For me, that's the unconditional love and unselfish care i have from all my precious ppl in my life.
Thank you to all who came and stay.
Thank you to all who came and left.
For every single person i believe i have learn many.

And i had the most wonderful 23rd of my life.

2009-04-30T12:36:00.004+08:00

My Nokia N81 had died on me!
After many days of battling with it, finally it is the one who surrendered.
Days of hanging on 1 screen and default keypads which could not work, no matter how hard you press on it and no freaking numbers will be out.
Phone ringing and once you answered, you can hear some "pongggggg" sound as though some keys were stuck and the the pressing tone could be heard.
My worst nightmare were numbers started appearing on the screen as though someone actually keyed it in and whenever i tried to msg or enter into the menu, it will start exiting by itself again and again and again. Till i feel like strangling the phone and hammering it into thousand pieces!!!
The hardest part was after i had switch the phone off and switch it on, i CAN'T key in my password as the number pad would not respond at all.
ARGHHH

So here i bid adios to my loved of 2 years and embrace (temporary) Sony Ericsson which is quite irritating to use though.
I guess a lazy person like me, unwilling to learn the how to(s) of other phones is still best sticking back to nokia.

on random,
there's one SUP PERSON who called and hang up real fast. Expecting me to call back!!!!!
And it happen like 4 to 5 times already!!
Irritating shit and super SUP shit. I will not call you back!!!
I hope my msg wake you up. PISS OFF SUP ZHU!

okay i think i'm in a super bad mood

2009-04-27T15:19:00.001+08:00

I tried studying and in the end, i ended up playing fashion wars and you- tubing!
And i found a few clips that got me laughing and laughing and laughing and on...

2009-04-25T16:47:00.001+08:00

It's a hit, yet again

2009-03-23T22:31:00.003+08:00

Kind of miss working.
I'm freaking bored everyday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHO WANTS TO ASK ME OUT TML??????????

2009-03-12T14:03:00.003+08:00

The bf's out of town.
Off to BKK for some business trip. Testing of new tyres and products.
Meanwhile I'll really make good use to focus on my studies this few days!
More business please!

2009-02-26T15:04:00.002+08:00

i'm pretty much into song lately!

and my jaw dislocated while hearing this little girl sing

2009-02-24T13:02:00.006+08:00

Happy Birthday to my dear EEKI!
Hope you will had tonnes of fun and happiness in your life!
Though we are not those kind of bff that grew up together nor been through school together. Sometimes no one understand me like you do! You would know what i wanted to say or what's in my mind at times and vice versa.
Even though there are times where we would get a little irritated at each other, we would learn to tolerate. Cause this is what being true to our friendship is.
All those nonsense we did together, the secrets we shared, the saddest time i had and you stood by me. Its enough, more than enough.
So i'll be a little corny here. I love you babe!
Happy birthday again ya!!!

2009-02-16T23:05:00.003+08:00

Batam was chill.
Here are some of my fav pics

2009-02-02T23:36:00.005+08:00

CNY

2009-01-15T22:35:00.003+08:00

I've found a song that totally describe my boy!
Especially the chorus part

I've Got A Man With Two Left Feet
And When He Dances Up To The Beat
I Really Think That He Should Know
That His Rythyms Go Go Go.

(Chorus)
Does He Wash Up Never Wash Up
Does He Clean Up No He Never Cleans Up
Does He Brush Up Never Brushed Up
He Does Nothing The Boy Does Nothing.

Hey Boy How You Been
I've Got A 1000 Lines
Where Do I Begin.
And I've Been Here Been There Travelling.
I Saw You At The Corner
My Vibe Kicked In.
Two Films I Clock You Wearing Tight Jeans
And A Real Nice Suit You Were Smiling Like You Were Just 17
I Asked You For A Dance You Said Yes Please.

Take A Sip Of Dancing Juice
Everybodys On To You To The Left Then To The Right
Everybody Hit The Rythym Its On Tonight
Im Gonna Fell The Beat Within My Soul
I Need A Man To Take Control.
Let The Melody Blow You All Away.

(Chorus)

Work It Now Work It Work It Now
Do The Mambo Shake It All Round Now
Everybody On The Floor Now Let Me See You Clap Your Hands

I Wanna See You Work
I Wanna See You Move Your Body
And Turn I Wanna See You Shake Your Hips
And Learn I Wanna See You Work It Work It Work It Out Now, Hey. (x2)

(Chorus)

And If The Man Can't Dance
He Gets A Second Chance
Do The Mambo Shake It All Around Now (x5)

2008-12-29T19:52:00.002+08:00

I'm so freeeeaaakiing happy!
My colleague managed to get all 3 series of the twilight book.
i have twilight from eeki love and other 3more tml!!!!
I searched high and low for new moon, eclipse and breaking dawn but it was sold out everywhere!!!
Called Kino, Popular and Borders and all was out! out!
Luckily my colleague called the distribution manager of Times and yes!
I'm having it tml!!!!!
It means many many sleepless night as i pour through the book every night, starting from tml!
I CAN'T WAIT

2008-12-26T22:48:00.013+08:00

Merry Merry Christmas to all!
Happy boxing day too! I had a wonderful Christmas.
A lovely lovely cosy celebration with all my loved one.
Chilling. Wine-ing. Food binging. Wild Dancing. Heart attacks...
Anyways i love all of them who is there with me on that special day
oh ya! Gift exchanging rock balls! Crazy presents and crazy time we had

and last but not least my Christmas pressie from bestest!
and i'm so freaking into the book. i need my NEW MOON and ECLIPSE ASAP!!!!!!!!
GREAT. I'M AS ADDICTED AS BESTEST IS!

2008-12-24T10:22:00.013+08:00

okay! i got tonnes and tonnes of overdue pictures.
And i really don't know where to start from.
Anyway its CHRISTMAS EVE!
A year just whizz pass sooooo fast. So here we are coming to an end of the year.
I'm celebrating my eve with the ppl i love! sweeeee

all right.
Zacky's wedding - on a yatch and ppl were having seasick all around us.
hmm i'm lucky that i'm not having it. it seems like it sucks big time

TAIPEIIIII!!! we literally shopped and shopped and eat and eat. i love taipei!

actually got tonnes more. but i'm freaking lazy. see when i'll have the mood again then.
i need to go town... i need to get pressiesssss

2008-11-28T02:33:00.001+08:00

i freaking happy!
happy like fcuk!!!!!!!
cause i freaking passed my test!!
I'm officially a P plate driver.
hehs

2008-11-27T10:31:00.001+08:00

please let me pass.

2008-11-20T16:48:00.002+08:00

Coughing and sneezing non stop for the past few days.
I even forgot how to taste. everything that goes into my mouth's so tasteless now.
Off day yesterday was spend on the bed. lazing around. dozing off after medication.
I thought i'm getting better today and off i went to work. in the end..........
I END up worse.
Hence, i know..
I'm freaking allergic to my office. to my work.

so i should mc till the day i go for my hols. hurrs

2008-11-19T16:09:00.006+08:00

oh my!
I've recieved the most terrifying news.
i can't believe the COE closes at $2 today.
Samuel called me around 3.58pm and gave me a bombing news.
"hey how many cars you have for bidding. you know COE now how much not. $1!"
my heart almost stopped beating for a moment and shucks.
it closes at 2bucks. 2 freaking bucks.
i hopeeeee. pray to all gods.
my customer DON'T call me NOW yet.......

i REALLY don't know how to break this wonderful news to them.

hurrs
wonderful off day today.

2008-11-09T22:59:00.002+08:00

wahahahah i can't help but laughed at the conversation i had with fong!
i think too much being in taiwan is changing him!!!

2008-10-25T00:36:00.010+08:00

Just back from Night Safari, Halloween Horrors.
Well, i had fun! The night tram through the zoo and well, ghostly characters along the way.
Good scare and tonnes of laughter.
Oh ya, my fav for the night has to be the dim sum girl. She's so eerie that she really spooked us!

2008-10-17T23:11:00.009+08:00

The bf became a merlion on his birthday.
and it was a rare rare sight to see.

Dragonfly on weds with the colleagues
and home sweet home alone on thurs.
I manage to whip out aligo oligo spag for the bf and he love it. ha.
My next challenge given by the bf is to cook curry. -_-" i think ... it sounds really hard.

dear baby,
hope you have fun and i love you!!!

2008-09-09T09:53:00.003+08:00

last min mj session and bestest and i won our bfs AGAIN.
The word "again" actually gave us immerse satisfaction and happiness.
Especially when the bfs realised its déjà vu
Hahahaha and well, they say they will be back for revenge.
So bestest we are game for it right :)

2008-09-07T10:55:00.005+08:00

For the first time in many weeks, i managed to sleep way earlier than i used to.
Although i rested early, i don't feel a slight tinge of being refresh.
Instead, i woke up feeling frustrated and lost.
Maybe its the time of the month again, maybe its not.
I'm being frustrated at myself. not at anyone. not at anything
I feel that i'm in a position where i can't change anything.
nothing.
and i feel so lost.
like no one can understand. no one can apprehend.
in another words, i feel like shit.
but what could i do another then putting on a fake smile and face the rest of the world all over again like it's any other day.

i don't know what is worth fighting for anymore
i don't know what is worth waiting for anymore
i don't know what is worth believing in anymore

i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know i don't know

2008-09-03T15:14:00.001+08:00

i found an old sch pic. ahahas.
when we still have long flowing tresses.

2008-08-25T21:20:00.003+08:00

After a flop chill out at boat quay's canto rock (all thanks to bernat).
Its dragonfly with the colleagues.
and its 10times happier than at canto rock

2008-08-24T15:39:00.005+08:00

Either its the weather or its just me.
I'm like a bag of bones recently. Losing my energy to push myself.
As a results, yeah. You can guess. My sales sucks. Doing only 2cars this month.
It's horrendous.
A chance to redeem myself this coming week.
Roadshow at raffles city. I need to wake my idea!
all right, push myself an extra miles for the month end !!

2008-08-22T00:23:00.004+08:00

When life's not a bed of roses.
When all things start to go wrong in life.
Is it for the better or for the worst?
When the once scarce love turns out wrong
When all sacrifices turn to none
You start to question yourself how and why do all things turn out the wrong way?
Why is marriage deem so different from the past?
Why did all vows went broken and the "i dos" became insignificant?
When did love became possessive and manipulative?
When did the person you once loved most seem so distance and unpredictable?
When did he/she became the most familiar stranger in your life ?
When did he/she became the person who hurts you the most in the most destructive ways?

I always thought that being together can overcome anything. anything that stands in the way of happiness.
I think i'm being utterly naive here.
cause
i've seen my fair share these few days.
My heart goes out for them and yet fear for the future
Does the word marriage even hold a weight in this modernize world?
How many more breaking out, deserting the other half will i have to see more?
How many heartaches and unbelievable truth will unfold in front of me?
and i realised as it dawn upon me.

Welcome to the real world

As i'm typing away here, the person i love most is sleeping beside me
i believe in us
i believe in our future
i believe we can create our own story.
i believe in you. do you?

2008-08-19T12:07:00.003+08:00

i seriously can't stand sluts.
and speaking of which, there's one in my office now.
A self declare free lance shit. (yes you!)
She seriously pisses me off. plus polluting my wonderful clean air.
I smell rotten p*ssy and dirty blood and it's making me nauseates.
Can't stand being confine in the same place as her.
i'm getting out of my office, off to giant to get some air purifier.
Would need it to freshen up the air in here.
ciao

bestest!!!
i HATE SLUTS
damn irritating

2008-08-15T23:14:00.006+08:00

Its little jaycee's 2nd birthday yesterday.
So we went over to henry's hse and that's when i became jaycee's fan!
He is so freaking cute and oh so HANDSOME !!

i'm still going gaga over him
ahahha

2008-08-14T12:04:00.004+08:00

All right.
3 more parking to learn and I'm into the circuit. =))

Hotel's confirmed!
And i really really can't wait. End nov seems a little too far away.
6 of us seems fun. We can go to much more places this time round.
Quick bestest! go source around for more places and plus our teeth whitening also!
Package shopping yesterday. and its so freaking tiring.
Why is it always the girls who are in charge of all this? ha.

Anyways
Like what bestest said on her blog, Our aim yesterday is to win the bfs money in mj.
And....we achieved it! ahahahhahas
Dragged our tired body back to sembawang plus morning driving, i'm feeling so drained and tired.

Tonight will be spend at henry's place again.
his cutie son's birthday plus celebrity meeting
ahahha, his sis is actually ming ju jie mei hua.
So i'm going to be star struck and tell his sis, money no enough 2 is soo nice. ahahah

okay, i don't know what i'm sprouting already.
time to work........................

i really can't wait for nov to come

2008-08-10T23:09:00.004+08:00

I'm going on leave and its approved!
its a whopping 6days straight.
no work. no phone calls. no customers. no enquires.
i can't wait. really
29th Nov. here i come!!!

and i realised over and over again.
the best damn thing is to be in your arms, to be by your side

2008-08-06T23:02:00.002+08:00

and i took a bike today after ages since i last took one.

i
i'm sorry for that senseless and stupid fight we had.
i love you boy

2008-08-03T22:45:00.004+08:00

can i go on a holiday now?
japan.hongkong.bangkok.taiwan
anywhere to get out of this little red dot.

2008-08-01T23:28:00.000+08:00

and i love you more than anything else.

2008-07-31T22:57:00.002+08:00

i know i've misjudged you.
and
i'm disappointed in you. very.

pls go as far away as you can.
thank you

2008-07-29T16:40:00.001+08:00

Cause I hear the whispered words
In your masterpiece beautiful
You speak the unspeakable through
I love you too

2008-07-28T22:55:00.007+08:00

anyways. pictures overdue.
Dempsy hill and my all time fav. Ben's and jerry. sweee

zouking high

and a long forgotten picture

and hada's wedding

and I'm convinced. cause you are not what i thought after all.

2008-07-27T20:14:00.003+08:00

To convince myself you are not that good afterall, i need to see it with my own eyes

2008-07-26T19:05:00.004+08:00

yes yes. What you see is what you get

and know what?

ITS NOT A TOY

its a tea cup poodle.

fugging cute!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm bugging the bf to buy one. but sadly...he rejected.

"you can't even take care of yourself, you want to take care of dog"

and

i'm now seriously hopelessly in love with it.......

and yeah!

FONG!

take care of yourself in taiwan.

drop by for a chat on msn when you are free k!

2008-07-24T12:41:00.002+08:00

i'm one happy soul today!
Cause the bf manage to take a day off
and its so damn long since i have him by my side during my off.
The last time was like my birthday? may?
ahahhahs so i'm one freak happy tard now.

Zouking was hilarious.
Catching up with hada was cool. thousand years since we last chilled together.
Wine bar followed by phuture. The guys behaved like tards.
High like on dope and i couldn't stop giggling.
The worst thing was we witness something like a live RA.
The smooching non stop still the verge on sitting on the chair with the damn leg wide open.
i swear that couple almost tear each other's clothes on the spot. its like half of the phuture were like staring at them and best still, they don't give a damn.
ahahas. sweee

all right. i got to run.
day out with my boy!!
woo

2008-07-20T21:11:00.004+08:00

For every minute you get upset with somebody
you are actually losing 60secs of happiness that you can never get back

2008-07-20T01:15:00.001+08:00

I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes

2008-07-18T16:37:00.004+08:00

I'm feeling real shitty at the moment
i having some irritating gastric problems.
i feel as it something's real wrong in it and what frustrate me is that i cannot figure it out!!!!!!!
I don't what is the problem and why am i feeling like fc*k.
argh!
bad day.

can i just faint and everything becomes okay when i'm awake???????????????????????????

2008-07-18T14:17:00.002+08:00

Because love's a private party and nobody got on the guest list

2008-07-11T14:15:00.001+08:00

Song of my moment

My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed

2008-07-11T12:53:00.003+08:00

Tired. tired. tired
I'm always tired recently.
Feel like a bag of lazy bones.
rah.
random

2008-07-08T14:19:00.000+08:00

Finally!

2008-07-07T22:07:00.003+08:00

Being together takes alot
Alot of effort.. alot of everything.
Both will have to learn to compromise.
To able to give each other breathing space
To be able to be in sync with each other and not to change one another
To be able to compliment each other and not overpower or overshadow each other
To be able to stand by each other, helping each other and not taking the lead to be ahead of each other
Love is a like maintaining a balancing scale
Too little of it its seen as insignificant or taking for granted.
Too much of it its seen as over possessiveness, over into it.
So how do 2 actually strike a balance?
And how do ppl define the balancing point?

What is deem as enough and what is deem as over?
Go figure it =))

2008-07-07T21:24:00.002+08:00

Polaroid

I'm still waiting for MR CHYE!
Where's the group photo!!!

2008-07-06T12:44:00.004+08:00

Mos-ing was superb
free show to watch too.
Polaroid was amazing! pictures up soon

After a fun night out and while all my wonderful friends plus bf are still sleeping in the warm seductive bed, i'm here.
In my cold and uninviting office, trying my damn hardest effort to stay awake.
Typing away.
I wish i can sleep on a bed now with the bf hugging me
I wish i can take MC TODAY but i can't
I wish i wish i DON'T HAVE TO work on sundays anymore =((

2008-07-02T16:32:00.005+08:00

i feel as if my work's suffocating me

I actually dreamt that i was doing sales in my sleep. yesh. in my supposedly peaceful rest time.

sales. cars. sales. cars. sales. cars.

I have lots to vent out. lots to say
but i really really can't find the exact way or words to express myself.
I guess its serious this time
i'm mind fc*ked
All right i got to find some dictionaries, burn it and drink it down like some talisman now.

2008-06-29T23:12:00.000+08:00

Recently i've found myself at a loss for words
I wonder did my brains died on me?

2008-06-28T16:13:00.000+08:00

a slight hint of confusion
a temporary confusion

2008-06-17T21:16:00.001+08:00

2008-06-17T13:29:00.001+08:00

cHy says:
hi, im 22 yrs old, loves to eat and slp, height 177, weight secret! nice to meet you
koon says:
whahahahhahaha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
koon says:
WEIGHT SECRET
cHy says:
YES
cHy says:
bu neng shuo de mi mi
koon says:
but i would like to know more abt u. YOUR WEIGHT ESPECIALLY
cHy says:
haha i like kungfu, weight is still secret

wahahhas like a tard

2008-06-16T14:50:00.003+08:00

Today marks the start of my practical driving lesson (after a 2 yr long break.)
yeah lazy me finally get my "assless" ass to start driving

drving license by 1st Oct!!
hurrr

2008-06-06T17:03:00.001+08:00

The bf's out today!!!!!
Woot
I love i love

random.
i chopped my fringes off

2008-06-04T14:56:00.001+08:00

The bf's going for outfield today.
Meaning no phone calls from him.
Reservist is only 5 days.
But it seems like 5 months for me.
I miss himmmmmmmmm

2008-06-03T18:42:00.003+08:00

October is only 4 months away.
Meaning i have to work doubly hard to make more money.
I want to get the bf something really nice.
Nice = money
Holy crap.

On another hand, i need to save up for my trip to sri lanka too.
i'm going there with my company and i have to pay for my own air tickets
Duh.
But...
i'm going for a very good cause.
Something that i wanted to do all along. .
To the 3rd world country. To do something for the people there.
I'm finally finally going to do what i always wanted to do.........
I guess i need some reality check.
Something to remind me time and time again how well to do i m compared to them
Something to remind me time and time again don't take things for granted

2008-05-21T20:41:00.004+08:00

Blasting week i had.
I got a precious off last Sunday cause its the day =))
Mos on the eve with all my favourites
Thank you all for making the effort.
Thank you eeki dear for sacrificing your $350 flight and be there. love you babe!

Most importantly, thank you baby boy!
FOR EVERYTHING!
I LOVE YOU DEAR TILL MY VERY LAST BREATH!!!

peektures up.

2008-05-13T00:35:00.006+08:00

My birthday week and its making me silly like a young kid again.
The bf went shopping for my pressie yesterday and i was so thrilled about it.
Today he gave me an option.
"eh you want your it now or later?"
I was so torn while making a decision. To have it now or to wait till the day.
But well, being a woman, and everyone knows that woman have a very high curiosity level, i chose it now.
ahahas so i went down to his car to retrieve my pressie
and
i fcuking love it!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy me!!!!!!!!!!

The boxer thief bf

2008-05-05T13:31:00.002+08:00

822 days
117 weeks
27 months

of being together..
happy to us

2008-05-04T10:58:00.002+08:00

I've been missing work for 3 days?
no no 2 days to be exact, i'm feeling so so so much better.
Fever along with bestest sore throat, cough and runny nose.
now, i got to concentrate on my sales...........................................................

2008-04-27T17:28:00.003+08:00

i'm having a love/hate relationship with my job.
I love what i'm doing but it gets kind of lonely at times.
Times when i have to actually compromise on my timings and meet ups.
Times when i have to be the sensible responsible working adult. To get enough rest or i would not have enough energy to do sales the next morning.
Times when i have to hear how my loved ones spent their wonderful Sundays or public holidays without me. (and a very big part of me feel like joining so so much)
Times when i have to get my ass to work when others are enjoying their sleep.
Times when i have to forfeit presence to go certain events or outings cause " i have to work tml"
Times when getting off for holidays is so so hard.
Times when i'm going for my off on bloody weekdays and all my friends have to work. Gratefully, most of the times my sweets can match my timings.
Times when i have to give out on going out due to me ending work late.
Times when work get so down and stress that i lost all energy to have fun and even dreamt of me doing a deal at night.

and yeah,
with bloody money issues at home (like what eeki said)
i have no choice after all if i want to earn this much.

2008-04-27T12:33:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry eeki love for yesterday night!

2008-04-23T00:31:00.002+08:00

"Boy, what do you think if we call our daughter in the future ni ni?

" ni ni! you might us well call our son lan lan."

" lan lan??"

" lan lan siao siao lor.wahaha"

-_- """""""""""""""""
That's how lame the bf can be.
So i'm going to be a ni ni mum and him a lan lan dad in let's say 2 yrs time.
ahahhahas

Btw, eeki dear!
Cure the mc fever. money have to roll in !
loves!

2008-04-15T21:29:00.000+08:00

Bye chye!!!!!!!!!!!
see you in 3weeks time

2008-03-28T14:56:00.001+08:00

i'm always telling myself life could not be any better!

2008-03-27T18:29:00.001+08:00

Beware!
Paint balls causes body aches and orh che.

By its damn freaking fun!!!!!

2008-03-23T19:26:00.002+08:00

One ask : 'When will i be rich?"

" when your heart does not want anymore. "

someone actually told me this and well, chew on it

2008-03-21T00:14:00.003+08:00

i just felt like blogging on what i saw just now.
A horrified accident that involved a 24 foot lorry and a Honda city.
When we first passed by the scene, we were all stunned.
The city was totally smashed cause its an head on accident.
This got us talking and i was hoping that both drivers and their passenger would be all right.
So 2 hours later when we passed by the scene again, the clear up were still not done yet.
Lorry were still there plus the city. But 2 additional significant things were there.
There were 2 tents
And yes, seeing tents is as good as letting us know that that was actually a fateful accident.
Don't know what really happened but man, the whole thing was huge.
More than 3 police cars were there, 1 ambulance and also 1 fire bridge.
Jams were everywhere.
I don't know why but i don't feel good.
Weird feeling in me. hmm i really don't know how to put it in actual words.

May the deceased rest in peace.

2008-03-18T23:32:00.001+08:00

Always said
"When you loved a person, you have to accept him as who he is."

Sometimes, its easier said then done

2008-03-12T23:40:00.002+08:00

Was chatting with the girls online and jess was telling me something hilarious.
She was telling me i looked alike with an american idol singer.

Well i'm flattered but for nuts i'm sure i can't sing. =))))

So what's the call like. ahahhas

2008-03-10T12:57:00.002+08:00

I had a sweet little date with the bf.
Its been a long time since its just the 2 of us.
His thoughtfulness makes me feel like a little girl again
Tardy
Anyways we caught The leap years.
And boy, it did make me cry tonnes
Its so so unrealistic but somehow it still reduce me to tears.
I guess only girls would know to really appreciate the show.
Unrealistic and yet so hopelessly romantic.
I admit i'm a sucker for romantic sob story
ahahhas
Tissues a must for this show.
AND
the male actor's hot!!!!

2008-03-08T11:31:00.001+08:00

uh oh i'm feeling the kick.
Sleepy sleepy.... arghhhhh

2008-03-05T18:18:00.002+08:00

I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight

Hey! Little mama,
Ooh, you're a stunner
Hot..little figure,
Yes, you're a winner
And I'm so glad to be yours,
You're a class all your own
And..
Oh, little cutie
When..you talk to me
I swear..the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that you are mine
You are one of a kind and..

You mean to me
What I mean to you and..
Together baby,
There is nothing we won't do
'cause if I got you,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.
And..

Oh!
I'm into you,
And girl,
No one else would do,
'cause with every kiss and every hug,
You make me fall in love,
And now I know I can't be the only one,
I bet there heart's all over the world tonight,
With the love of they life who feel..
Wat I feel when I'm

With you With you
With you With you With you
Girl..
With you With you
With you With you With you

Oh girl!
I don't want nobody else,
Without you, there's no one left then,
You're like Jordans on Saturday,
I gotta have you and I cannot wait now,
Hey! Little shawty,
Say you care for me,
You know I care for you,
You know...that I'll be true,
You know that I won't lie,
You know that I would try,
To be your everything..yeah..

'cause if I got you,
I don't need money,
I don't need cars,
Girl, you're my all.
And..

With you With you
With you With you With you
Oh..
With you With you
With you With you With you
Yeah Heh..

And I..
Will never try to deny,
that you're my whole life,
'cause if you ever let me go,
I would die..
So I won't front,
I don't need another woman,
I just need your all and nothing,
'cause if I got that,
Then I'll be straight
Baby, you're the best part of my day

I need you boo,
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight
Woo Oh.. Yeah
They need it boo,
They gotta see their boo,
Said the hearts all over the world tonight,
Hearts all over the world tonight [x2]

With you With you
With you With you With you
Girl..
With you With you
With you With you With you
Oh..